Keeping the dream alive.

shifted.

2008-05-15T14:56:00.000+08:00

gone here.

it's time to let go.

I'm not asking you..

2008-05-13T22:28:00.004+08:00

to agree with me...just asking for you to understand where i'm coming from.
not to agree...but just to accept..
is it THAT hard?

I can't believe I totally forgot about dinner and drinks with the chinese high boy tonight!
man...
but then again..with what happened over the past week...
I'm quite sure he'll forgive me..
:)

Man has his will, but God has His Way.

2008-05-12T19:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I gave my mum the worst scare of her entire motherhood!
:(
ah wells...at least it's unforgettable! :)
and you know what?
besides the fact that I ought to have eaten before donation..
I'll not change my decision of donating one bit...if I had the chance to relive yesterday.

Because...yesterday..You showed me that Your grace was sufficient for me.
And that You're always there.
Remember how I was praying for You to be with me?
Truth is...You were already there even before I started praying for Your presence.
The bruises that I had? Gone.
:)

You make me complete, Lord.

Only You.

Today's a unforgettable day...

2008-05-11T17:07:00.004+08:00

because this Mothers' Day..

I didn't buy a thing for my mum per se...

I did something for her.

[pretty long entry because of my chiong hey-ness]

main points : i donated blood (second time in my life), and i fainted (for the very first time).

I decided to donate blood as there was some blood donation drive over at the station.

kinda told a couple of lies before the thing...

i didn't had any brekky or lunch yet..

figured it wouldn't matter much..i mean..i was totally fine the last time i did this...which was like...2006 with esther and jasmine in nus.

i forgot about the dinner i skipped last night..wasn't hungry la.

was quite freaked out when i was given the questionaire to fill up..

almost bolted.

this is why i needed a kaki to go donate blood with me...but let's not go into that.

decided to do it alone.

don't need nobody.

you know it's final when they give you this number after you complete the form..

and they register you in...do the medical checks..blood test..and

boom.

you're on the hot seat.

note: the most painful part was actually the initial blood test...where they use this needle thingy to prick your finger to draw blood. it's bruised now. :(

and at the hot seat...there i was praying and praying...

Father...be with me...and worship songs were running through my head...

and praying and praying that it won't hurt..

and the nurse took quite a while to attend to me...

finally...she prep-ped for it...alcohol swabs and all..and then...nothing.

this guy next to me...turned pale..and she had to attend to him..

finally it was my turn..she hit me with something..i thought the huge needle went in...but..nah..

just a hit of L.A to numb the arm..

and seriously...that stuff's good..can't feel anything when the needle entered.

but was too caught up praying that it won't hurt until i forgot to look at the size of the needle..

so..it's my 2nd time doing it..and i still haven't caught a peek at the supposedly huge needle.

-shrugs-

anyways..after the needle went in...

i cam-whored for a while with the phone...just took pics of my blood bag, the tubes and stuff...cuz it was right smack in the center of NEL..where people entering or leaving could see me..

-.-
so...i believe i took photos the entire time... O_o

heh.

anyhows..

i felt right as rain after that...could walk without wobbling...etc.

went to awfully chocolate to collect the cake. and headed to the bus stop...

and everything was FINE.

until i boarded the bus...

man...

i went clammy...had to sit somewhere..so i sat at the elderly people seats.

broke out in cold sweat....there was this buzzing in my ears...eyes couldn't focused..

so...i did what any logical and sane person would do...i closed my eyes...and prayed and tried to will it away...and guess what...

i missed my stop...

ended up at pasir panjang..

stayed at the bus stop for what felt like eternity..

more like...zoning out there...was feeling really awful..

and the ache in the tumtum didn't help matters..

still can't focus very well...buzz was still in the ears...

and i couldn't even stand long enough to flag a cab..

so i just sat there and closed my eyes...

this aunty was like...are you ok? there's the petrol station across the road..i go and get you a drink? and i was like...i'm ok...thank you...

then...

my darling, dearest, favourite brother called...and i couldn't hear much due to the buzzing..

so i was like...

going to faint..come fetch me...at the bus stop across shell at pasir panjang hawker center..

and then after passing on her duties to another 2 ladies...the aunty went on her way...

the 2 ladies were equally nice...asking me if i wanted a drink..that i looked totally pale...and stuff..

the car finally came...i went in...and just crashed...

seriously...it was really bad..

come again another day..

parents were nagging about not having breakfast and stuff...

all the way home...which was thankfully quite a short journey.

wobbled my way into the lift with my mum as support...and somehow...my legs gave way...and i fainted...

for a couple of seconds..

but..i could hear music...prolly the angels singing..

-shrugs-

then people panicking..

finally got into the house and onto the sofa...

and just rested for a couple of hours...till 4pm really...

so..

'tis was a memorable experience

o.o

don't want to ever do it again.

and according to my mum...it currently tops the list of unforgettable mothers' day ever...

and i reckon it's gonna be a pretty hard record to topple.

p.s. just had the cake and it was absolutely amazing...and my mum refused me seconds..because she thinks i shouldn't one moment not eat anything..and one moment eat so much.

binge eating.

lessons learnt:

a week of late nights,

office stresses,

other stresses,

plus skipping 3 consecutive meals

is prolly detrimental to one's health especially if a significant amount of blood is going to be taken out of the body..

so..

don't do this at home.

back to bed, woozy head.

He knows every star in the sky, every single tear that you cry.

2008-05-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

The Whole World...

2008-05-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

is trying to make me feel as if it's my bloody fault...
for not voicing out before and all.
i do not appreciate guilt being forced down my throat.

im gonna bugger off now.

I saw...

2008-05-10T10:42:00.002+08:00

Kun's msn msg just now..
...Stop taking me for granted..

and man does that strike a chord.

But most of everyday;Is full of tired excuses;But it's too hard to say.

To put trust, faith and hope..

2008-05-09T22:33:00.002+08:00

in man...is ultimately setting yourself up for disappointment.
People do let you down. and seriously. it sucks.
all there is now would be to fall back and regroup..and lick your wounds.

Only You I can trust, have faith and hope in, because You're the same yesterday, today, and forevermore.

Sometimes...

2008-05-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

I'm made to feel as if i'm very irritating and well..perhaps..an irritant of some sorts..
and that feels damm sad.

I Lay Every Burden Down, at the Foot of the Cross.

2008-05-04T18:56:00.003+08:00

Had a super duper filling lunch at Hotel Park Royal yesterday..
Afterwhich, popped by to the Rodrigos with Jun and Belly to meet the piano teacher!
:)
'twas nice.
then..headed down to the flyer for popeye's.
errr...well...fanta grape from popeye's for my case...
the girls ate while i watched..
then we ~~gossiped~~ shared stuff...
and on the way to church today...
suddenly this thought struck me..
God has a time for everything.
it's like...i don't think i've ever been plagued by lan tao huas - Rotten Peach Blossom
ah wells...and looking back retrospectively on my numerous crushes etc.
the potential lan tao huas there are well...quite O_o
yeah..
it's as if there's someone looking out for me...doing a filter of some sort..
even tho i was only looking at the small picture...He was looking at the big picture...
and hence i know that His plans are wonderful and awesome..
to think i only realised that today.
ah wells...
a time for everything :)

Audience of One.

Of Christians and Tea-bags.

2008-05-01T23:55:00.004+08:00

Some nonsense happened a couple of days back...and that really made me question myself..
like...i was so mortified.
spoke to a couple of people...emailed a couple of them..msned too..
and it's all well now...i hope.
won't hurt to make a list for easy reference as advised by my dear twin.
teehee.

the past few days also seemed to have a new and unfamiliar role being thrusted on me..
i usually don't psychoanalyse people..or rather...don't do it out loud and in their face..
i mean..it's a habit of mine..
one which i usually don't share with others..
like what the twin said..but you've got a Melancholic side in you..
and yeah..but the Sanguine side always takes front seat esp in front of others.
so well..
i'm a closet fretter and a chronic worrier.
anyhows...the conclusion of the psychoanalysis was quite insightful i would say..
can't further elaborate without having to compromise some of the stuff that shall not be said..
but...
the Lord has a time and place for everything. and all i have to do is to trust Him.

so perhaps i'll just continue to be a spectator and see how it all falls into place..doing what i like best...to psychoanalyse the situation and if need be..i'll pull a stop to production and give time-outs.
we'll see...hopefully it won't come to that.

in other news...
I hearty heart heart my twin
:D
we went shopping and for those who really know me...will know that i'm a terrible shopper.
i can't make my mind up for most things..
i whine when i'm tired.
and i just act like i would die to be somewhere else.
ahhh...today...
i only just can't make my mind up on which stuff to buy
hence i've only ended up with a top..
but i'm actually saw an esprit dress which i quite liked...
we'll see...i'm not a dress person tho
:D

and i'm breaking out in rash
darn it.
and i desperately need to suntan and lose weight
but i'm not all that desperate to bring the dogs to sentosa..
even tho it'll fulfil everything within a day...
i'll be in the sun the entire afternoon
i'll have to swim over to the faraway island...with my dog trying to drown me..
and my dog gets to go out and play!
it's a win win situation..
but...
it's really tiring..
and i'm always half-dead when i get back.
owner and dog..KO-ed.
O_o
we'll see.

Running to catch the fire.

2008-04-27T22:10:00.002+08:00

Read in the papers today about the death of a breast cancer survivor..
she was part of the dragon boat team, Paddlers in Pink.
Is it me or does the year 2008 seem fraught with deaths...loved ones passing on..
Maybe it's just me..
-shrugs-
well, granted that there is a fair share of weddings, births and other various joyous occasions.

ah wells.

And like a flood His mercy rains.

2008-04-27T00:16:00.002+08:00

I'm so so tired.
sometimes...i don't know why i even bother.
it's like....
some people just don't care.
i mean...it's just basic decency.
common courtesy i reckon.
'tis a bad habit.
Lateness
Maybe i just require orderness in my life.
i can't do random. only structured.

that aside, i've been doing daily bible devotions before work starts recently..
been listening to pastor greg laurie's podcast...and it's good.
i like how it's all systematic and stuff...starting from the book of Genesis and working it's way upwards.
and one of my kids is going to represent the Republic in some competition in the US of A
super cool...and she's really good.
seriously.
:)
i think i'm half in love with my kids...the irritating monkeys they are.

class tomorrow.

Monkey Sees and Monkey Does.

2008-03-02T17:39:00.002+08:00

This guy with a big-ass camera was at a bus-stop in town taking a picture of something overhead.
I was standing right in front of him..so i tilted my head up to see if i can catch a glimpse of whatever that had caught his interest.
people alighting from the bus came down and stood there and immediately looked up..
there was about 5 of them before they were like...'chey..nothing wad..'
hurhur

2008-03-01T23:56:00.001+08:00

I want a boy who I can run to; with tears running down my face & the first thing he says is.. 'who's ass am I kicking babe?'

101 Things in 1001 days.

2008-03-01T23:13:00.003+08:00

The Mission: Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria: Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?

Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year’s resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organising and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Finishing Date: November 28, 2010

I've only just started planning my list...so...anything goes.. :))

#1 Walk Ginger 5 days/week for a month. Consecutively.

#2 Give blood thrice.

#3 Read the Bible from the beginning to the end.

#4 Read the dictionary from the beginning to the end.

#5 Go around to at least 5 different parts of the island snapping photos.

#6

143.

2008-03-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

Was in town last night when I realised that I really do missed town.
Haven't been in town for quite some time tho..
Was waiting for the lights to change when I saw this man playing with a flyer..
He folded it in such a way that it looked like a hat...and he placed it on his head...
and I caught a glimpse of it and I was grinning at his silliness..
I reckoned he saw me grinning...because he was encouraged to put the flyer on his mouth to act as his lips..
And I had to bite my lips to prevent myself from laughing out loud..
Then..the lights changed.
Man...do I love quirky people.

And I figure it's time to do some reallocation of my finances..
Time to do abit of work on my portfolio...
Sheese.

And I prolly met a ton of people in town today..
met a friend for some dimsum...
and bumped into a long-lost friend at Plaza Singapura..
where we stood outside a shop for the longest time ever.

After which more bumps were made with a mate from school and a teacher from jc..

Amazing stuff..

And i spent an hour in the bookshop today..

I love the smell of new books.

Achy bones.

2008-02-26T19:55:00.001+08:00

And I always thought that you'll live forever.

I'm missing you.

a case of weltschmerz.

2008-02-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

i feel sad today.
just sad.
no specific reason.

perhaps living and dying is really just one thin fine line...
and it hurts.

it's painful.

:(((

Dimsum.

2008-02-22T20:31:00.002+08:00

Spent a bomb..or rather...emptied the wallet today at Meiji
:)
there's a warehouse sale and it's amazing..
funny how such a small room can put a smile on my face.
heh.
bought a bit too much Hello Pandas..
:D
and my strawberry chocolate thingy...
and some mushroom thingy..
etc.
fantastic...
and it's CHEAP!
i only had 20bucks on me at that time...and i spent 19buckeroos!
:D
happy happy.

and i predict a sore throat coming along soon.

Crossroads.

2008-02-20T21:12:00.002+08:00

After a fairly long hiatus, I'm finally back!
nyeh.

2008 hasn't been off to a good start..well at least for me..
I mean...my grandpa passed away on the first day of the new year...so..
go figure.

currently..i'm prolly suffering from a ~~mid-life~~ quarter-life crisis of some sorts..
i'm going to ponder about it for a bit and we'll see what happens..

oh rights...
about all the wrongs the new year has brought about so far...
let's see..
my asthma came back...like...?!$#!!%^
heh...i mean...it was quite a shock..since it has all but disappeared since my pri two days..
luckily it was a mild attack..but quite horrifying nonetheless..
and i still went to church O__o
and spent the entire time during service trying to breathe..didn't managed to croak a single song out..heh

Ginger's balding! and losing weight!
i mean...my dog has a butt the size of JLo...well...erm...kinda...if you compare her to Puppy..
now she's like...Paris Hilton la!
and Puppy put on weight and now she's the one looking like JLo.. O__o
Ginger has to eat more!
Input increase...Output decrease...something will be retained in her body as fats sooner or later..

Nonsense at work..
can't elaborate any further..ask me personally if you want to hear me bitching about it..
to those who didn't ask and still kenna-ed the bitching...
this just shows that you're my listening ears..

Anyhow...i've decided that i've had enough.
Enough of all the nonsense and clutter..
i'm letting go and letting God.

in mourning.

2008-01-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

03.04.1927 - 01.01.2008

You will forever be missed.

I love you Gong gong.

I'm an emotional wreck...mentally tired...physically drained...
and i really want to turn back time.
:(

Rest well..dear gonggong.

change.

2007-11-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes i think that if i just don't care. i'll not feel so affected by it. just adopt a 'i can't be bothered' mentality.

Singa the Lion.

2007-11-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

I've said this so many times before.
but.

i still do not like people who change plans suddenly.

fine.
for this case...it's prolly not a sudden change of plans...considering that it's only monday..and plans were made for friday..
but.
plans were made the previous sunday.
so..
yeah.

and.

i had to bug to only realise that the plans were cancelled.
what happened to simple courtesy?
ugh.
am quite peeved.

And i still can't believe that i had to tell a 28-29yr old preg woman off.
she happily cleared the empty trays and left it on the next table..when a guy was eating his meal there..
like...
O__o
and the guy was absolutely staring daggers at our table.
sigh.

Little Steps.

2007-11-18T14:31:00.000+08:00

1 kid did her homework!!!!
-beams-

and i said that if even 1 kid did the homework i gave i'll be extremely happy already!
and I AM!
:D
i'm so proud of her.
:D
Caitlyn!!! my pretty little pink girl..
hurhur.

then again...a couple of them didn't come today..and those that came were mainly those that weren't here when i gave the homework..
so..
-shrugs-

Little Mercies.
:D

Nights.

2007-11-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

Saw this uncle on the train headed to Clementi this morning.
Looks like any other uncle except for his hands..
hmm..
there seems to be some sort of a web around both his hands...such that his fingers aren't properly separated..
but yet...they all have nails..
so it's like..
errr...a duck or goose..or any other webbed creature..
yeah...
his hands were some sort of like that..
and yet he looks as if everything's cool..
he found a way to grip the bar on the train..
and everything...

Lord, i pray that i'll be like him in times of trials..to praise You and work with what i've been given instead of blaming and complaining and grumbling..which i'm prone to do.

Snigger.

2007-11-12T15:40:00.001+08:00

Guess who aced her papers?
-beams-
the course that i was uber stressed about..
the exam grades are out..
and yours truly scored..
94, 96 and 100 for the theory, practical and logbook sections respectively.
full marks per section is 100 btw.
:D

super duper uber happy.

Chestnuts roasting.

2007-11-12T00:34:00.001+08:00

Should i do a christmas activity with the kids?
i.e. make christmas cards?
hmmmm

oneten anniversary.

2007-11-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

this feeling suddenly sneaks up on you and catches you when you least expect it.

i think i like teaching sunday school.

-amazed-

Distractions.

2007-10-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

Breakthrough Missions came to share during service today and once again i'm shown how minor and small my problems are.
As compared to what they're facing..well...it just really puts things into perspective.
ahh..
i've been mugging my arse off since saturday...which is ..yesterday..
really hard to get into the mugger mode, since the last time i mugged was well...last year..
O__o
and i'm mugging because...i'm going for a 3 day course from wed till fri..
which may seem fine..but there's an exam on fri..practical test and written.
O__o
and although it may seem abit kiasu to mug for a course that i haven't even attended..
well..they sent the course pack to like...4 months ago...and yours truly hasn't touched it yet until i had a panic attack on friday evening.
so...
here am i trying to mug.
in the course of my futile attempts at mugging...i've devoured...2 bags of chips..fruit tips (actually shared those with my kids..if not..i'll be inhaling 3 tubes instead of 1)..and errr...ovaltine...and loads of random rubbish...
besides these...i'm really not very focused i reckon..
i get distracted by 10 min naps..which easily turn to an hour's worth of sleep...and playing random nonsense games instead of watching the videos..(the course pack is a dvd with videos)
so..here i am...
at the middle of the 2nd chapter...having 3 more chapters to go...
and hoping that the rest of the chapters are short and sweet..

and my lousy dog is sleeping beside me..
gah.
i want to sleep too!

John 5:1-29

2007-10-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

It finally hits me.
I'm going to be teaching tmr.
/runs around like a headless chicken.

the week has been relatively eventful with the boss being away and all.

two ulcers.

popped by to visit the newborn hairy nephew and chatterbox of a niece just now.
the niece still has talkative and the nephew..well..still hairy.
'twas good spending time with family.

i think i'm in a weird place now...weird but comfortable.
and i think i kinda like it.

I could sing of Your love forever.

Man - The Dwelling Place of God. A.W. Tozer

2007-10-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

I've started reading this ebook since Monday..
and i must say that i've been mightly challenged by it.

One of the chapters speak about 'loving thy neighbour', something which i've trying really hard, and not succeeding.

excerpt:

They do believe in God; they do indeed trust Christ as their Saviour, but
the love they hoped to feel consistently eludes them. What is the trouble?

The problem is not a light one. A real difficulty is involved, one
which may be stated in the form of a question: How can I love by commandment? Of
all the emotions of which the soul is capable, love is by far the freest, the
most unreasoning, the one least likely to spring up at the call of duty or
obligation, and surely the one that will not come at the command of another. No
law has ever been passed that can compel one moral being to love another, for by
the very nature of it love must be voluntary. No one can be coerced or
frightened into loving anyone. Love just does not come that way. So what are we
to do with our Lord's command to love God and our neighbor?

To find our way out of the shadows and into the cheerful sunlight we
need only to know that there are two kinds of love: the love of feeling and the
love of willing. The one lies in the emotions, the other in the will. Over the
one we may have little control. It comes and goes, rises and falls, flares up
and disappears as it chooses, and changes from hot to warm to cool and back to
warm again very much as does the weather. Such love was not in the mind of
Christ when He told His people to love God and each other. As well command a
butterfly to light on our shoulder as to attempt to command this whimsical kind
of affection to visit our hearts.

The love the Bible enjoins is not the love of feeling; it is the love
of willing, the willed tendency of the heart. (For these two happy phrases I am
indebted to another, a master of the inner life whose pen was only a short time
ago stilled by death.)
and something that struck me hard today was this sentence..
Be hard on yourself and easy on others. Carry your own cross but never lay one on the back of another.
It's just so much easier to view yourself as the goody-two-shoes, with an explanation for every nonsense behaviour, while every wrong that another makes is being condemmed.
it's just much easier to criticise others.
me thinks i'm liking Tozer's writings.

Java chip.

2007-09-17T07:41:00.000+08:00

Started my first lesson in Sunday School yesterday and it was really cool and fun..
Worship was REALLY different..almost all the songs were hyper and required ALOT of actions and bopping up and down.
heh.
'tis fun.

the kids were quite disciplined and all..they'll automatically arrange the chairs in rows before worship..and stack them up again after that...and they're only pri 1- 3 mind you..

and don't get me started on the way funky OHP...it's SO compact!
everything fits into this carryable thingamajig.
-amazed-

i've got the primary twos..and evan's dad is teaching them!
aunty kwok was saying..that's mr gong..and /lightbulb moment.. ohhhh..evan's dad ar?
heh
:D

learnt about trust in class..
trust is...i believe in you...faith...etc.
trust and respect cannot be demanded..it has to be earned.
and how do you know a person is trustworthy?
if your friend wants to borrow a pencil..then you lend him a pencil..and if he returns you after a while...you begin to build trust in him..
hurhur.
that's bringing the whole trust issue to the most basic level.
-grins-

and according to aunty kwok..i'm supposed to teach when september ends..which is..approx 2 weeks time!
-runs around like a headless chicken-

and there are so much more girls than guys in my class...counted only about 6 guys...about 1/3 of the class are boys..
i was assigned to sit with the girls..
who are quite interesting..
when it was time to do the worksheets and all..
this girl handed me a pencil with a grin..cuz i'm pencil-less..
pitiful i know..
and...
after a while..like 1 min or so..
she realised that i wasn't writing anything..
so..she promptly gave me the answers for the exercise...which was something along the lines of rearrange the pictures in order or something..
and i was like..
o.O
am i supposed to be insulted?
hurhur.

and they've got cute little notebooks..ok lar..not really cute..it's the usual book notebook that we use in primary school :D
the notebooks are meant to be used to write down the memory verse..and when you write that down...you get to choose a sticker.
heh.
and they're so excited over that!
you would have thought that they were only there for the stickers!
o.o

and as i was looking at them while sitted on my kiddie-sized chair..a thought struck me..
How many of them would still be in church by the time they're 20?
Me hopes that it'll be all of them..by then..they ought to be in YF i reckon..
(:

and on the way home..while waiting for my bus after a bout of coffee with a friend..
i saw this boy..prolly only pri 1 or 2?
he was wiggling his butt and dancing his head off to the music that the Equal roadshow was blasting nearby..
'tis was funny..and while i was silently laughing..his mum caught be stifling a laugh...and she ended up laughing with me..
he was really funny...butt wiggling and all..
/thumbs up
and that's when i realised that...i kinda really like kids..
heh.

surreal.

2007-09-13T20:15:00.001+08:00

i felt the earth tremble under my feet.
the blinds in my office swayed.
and there were 3 sets mind you..
all swaying.
the walls seemed to vibrate just a little as well.
the walls are lousy..made of plywood or something..hollowish.

so freaky.

and im such as dodo..
i just sat there..jaw aslack.
should i run or not?

by the time i decided.

all was calm again.

-shrugs-

it was mightily cool.

seriously.

Issues.

2007-09-12T21:14:00.000+08:00

I went to work this morning thinking about a few issues..
to which i know the answers to..
but..
i'm not really quite sure of the verses that say so..

1) homosexuality.
2) abortion.

only had time to read up on the homosexuality issue before work started..
didn't had time to read on abortion tho..

i'm quite disturbed by the whole homosexuality..disease..i would think..that's really common in society nowadays..
i mean...starbucks girl likes girls..
and i thought i was fine with it..
but looking back...there should be so much things that wasn't fine.
anyway...i digress..but starbucks girl quitted on us last month..she's now at another company.
and the reason..
she broke up with her ex-girl.
and..
a week before she left..she hooked up with another girl.
within 1 meeting.
they went out to meet for the first time.
they got together.
it was THAT fast.

and i'm quite irked.

i mean..starbucks girl is a friend.
she's cool and all..
but..
darn..
after reading up and stuff..
i have to make a firm stand on this homosexuality issue i reckon.
it's a definite no-no..
it's stated in the Bible..
black on white.

and if our God hates homosexuality..
then..we should too..because we're His people.

so..
i hate homosexuality.
but..
not the people.

i hate the act of it..
but..
not the people.

-shrugs-

Contemplative.

2007-09-09T17:04:00.000+08:00

Clara shared a brilliant movie at Sunday School Sunday today.

and I strongly suspect that there's something in there...may be making some changes in my life..

we'll see how things go.

Watch the "Teddy Stallard Movie"

2007-09-06T13:41:00.000+08:00

Your EQ is 113

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Potassium, Sodium and Platinum.

2007-09-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

today's super funny!
movie kaki and i were talking about the neighbour's replies and all lar..
then...
being chemistry majors..

J: I want to be like Potassium.
D: very reactive? and on fire for GOd ah?
J: displacement reaction... sacrificial protection...i sacrifice myself so that other metals won't corrode
D: ooh. Christ is the potassium. imagine that without him we are freaking going to hell
J: oh..quite true..after potassium is what ar? we be sodium ok?
D: hahaha..we try...we can only try..hahaha
J: as long as we don't end up as platinum
D: haha. yeah. that would be really sad.. inert. unpassionate. unwilling.
J: i mean..at least silver is better than platinum..

note: you need to have basic knowledge on the displacement reaction or the reactivity series to understand what this two geeks are talking about..secondary school chemistry is sufficient tho..
nothing too chim
:)

lalalalala...happy day.
i'm so sleepy.

A Good Man.

2007-09-05T21:19:00.000+08:00

I remember the days in nus where twin will joke about this vcf guy who lives near me..
she actually intro-ed us..but i sorta kinda forgot his name..anyway..we always refer to him as 'hao nan ren'...
and it's simply because...she thinks that he's a 'hao nan ren' and she keeps promoting him in front of me la...
sheese.

but i digress.

this entry is about my darling, beloved, neighbour!
HE IS A HAO NAN REN!
O___o

we're talking about the same guy who was SOOOOO irritating in sec 2!
cuz that's when i know him mar..

then he became a christian in poly...and it's a 180 deg change!
O__o
-impressed-

anyway...what happened today was...
i was on my way home from work..and i heard this piece of disturbing news on the radio.
1) some guy kenna hacked at telok blangah blk 63..which pertained to us..cuz our area mar..
2) some idiot threw a dog down from his flat in sembawang.

obviously i'm more concerned and disturbed over news 2..since the guy in news 1 was fine..just in hospital..and they caught the hacker..apparently some family dispute.

so...i msged him..
Me: Neighbour! Telok Blangah Blk 63 got someone kenna hack! den sembawang got some idiot threw a dog down frm a flat! My blood is boiling sia..i want to scold someone!
Him: You can scold me lor..
Me: wahahaha..but it's not your fault! Silly cow..heh..
Him: Cuz you wanna scold somemore.
Me: I'm very very impressed by you leh!! Your answer is like o.O you rock!! Cuz i'll never think of offering myself to kenna a scolding that I don't deserve..heh
Him: Haha. I love you as my friend..
Me: Pwoah. I so need to learn how to be more self-sacrificial. -impressed-

so...
see!!!
HAO NAN REN!!!
good man!
/thumbs up

thingamajigs.

2007-09-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

I heart heart heart viv!
she who entertains me at work with random nonsense on facebook.
like...licking me...and throwing ketchup at me...and other random nonsense!
hahaha.

i'm a facebooker lar.

heh.

ohhhh..
i'm like doing some random rubbish like trying to get movie kaki to buy me a bag/pouch to put my life app bible, wallet, and phone...and pens!
heh.
i realised that my bags are ALWAYS filled with unnecessary stuff..
they weigh a ton.
EVEN if all i have to do is to pop out to buy something in town etc.

so..
im still trying to hint at him to get me a pouch.
but...the smart bugger's like...trying to get me to go sks to buy present for a mutual friend..
thing is..
i have NO idea where SKS is!
O___o
i only know that it's at tiong bahru.
fullstop.

._.

i'm lousy..i know.

ohhhhhh
movie kaki's like...
can i just buy you a normal pouch?

-claps gleefully-

heh..at first..he was like...is your bday round the corner??
and im like..no..
but you can give me for random reasons like...
i'm your FRIEND...i'm your churchmate...i'm your senior in school.. etc.
-beams-

lalalalala.

/edit..i feel quite bad pressuring the poor guy to buy me a pouch when i'm the one who's working..heh..
it's the thought that counts!
:D
i'll go pouch shopping soon... :D

Grope-ed.

2007-09-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

I got groped onboard 143!
in bright daylight!
by a total stranger!
and it was O.o

you see the hand coming towards you..
and you inch backwards..
BUT..
for every cm you move backwards..
the hand goes 2cm forwards..
and then..it makes contact.
and i'm like.
o.o

-in shock-

luckily the groper's a 10 month old baby girl called Gabrielle.
So cute i tell you..
with her 4 front teeth and pudgy hands.
so cute.

i mean..i can't scream and slap her right?
so...i was feeling super awkward i tell you.
anyway..
i even got to carry her twice!
once was because the maid wanted to close the pram..
the pram was in the way of everyone boarding the bus..
so i tried to help close it..
but it's super hard.so..
she handed the baby to me..
and she tried closing it..
in the end..she gave up..and took the baby back..
then after like a while..she was like...can you help carry her? i'll push it to the side..

i'm MORE then willing to help!
Gabrielle's SOOOO cute...
she has big eyes and she smiled at me..
and i melted..like a puddle of goo at her pudgy feet.
sighh.

and then...climax..
then she came back...
carried the baby and told me "God bless you.."
and i was bug-eyed..
i mean...to date...no stranger has told me that before!
i mean..WOW.
i was just expecting a Thank you...
or something along that lines..
but Wow.

i like.

Niceee.

oh...and after carrying the baby for like..a min or so..
i realise that she's super heavy!
Baby Gwen pales in comparison.
No fight.
and Baby Gwen's as heavy as a sack of rice!

Off to bed.
Gotta work tmr.

So exciting....not.

Psalm 23

2007-08-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

This made me smile for the first time yesterday.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_YVKsajjPA

Missing Dog Notice.

2007-08-22T08:32:00.000+08:00

Ginger went missing for 2 hours before she was found again.
there was this whole big drama where we were running up and down the condo and all.

That was the longest 2 hours of my life this year.

it's when important things go missing that you're realise the significance they make in your life.

and The Secret is a pretty brilliant movie to watch.
can't say that I was all interested to watch it once i heard that Jay was acting.
ah wells..but it's brilliant. the plot's brilliant. and the piano skills are ohmygosh!
quite enjoyed the piano battle.

and i'm skiving from work today. feeling very tired.

humbug.

2007-08-17T23:24:00.000+08:00

lousy. terrible. horrible. forgettable week.

details to come.

He Wishes For The Cloths Of Heaven by William Butler Yeats

2007-07-29T11:37:00.000+08:00

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

Curiouser and Curiouser.

2007-07-21T19:42:00.001+08:00

Work this week was horrendous.
Initial thought when I found out that the boss had to go to the States for a business trip was pure joy!
1 whole week of FREEDOM. No one to report to and all.
but.
it turned out to be 5 whole days of headaches.
man...
i'm counting out to the day boss gets back to the office.
Apparently...i'm the next 'boss' since she ain't around.
and with great power comes great responsibility
every one of my people fell sick.
and there were problems everyday.
and...
the GM decides to email me asking me to help settle customers' complaints..
which has always been done by the boss.
had to see the ex boss many many times to help with many problem issues and all.

spoke to the top 3 scariest high ranking people of the company within 2 days.

recieved a phone call from the GM..ended up stuttering for abit before switching to some accent..
then...well..apparently when talking to people in power or...not very singlish people...or..people that i'm not too familiar with...
this accent comes out.
yeah.

dealed with sales people everyday.
dealed with the order department everyday.
nearly came to blows with the old biatch from the factory...she LOVES using her boss's name in vain...just because she knows that he's well feared by us...
but...i spoke to him both in face and on the phone..and he's ok i reckon...
didn't get a chance to shout at me..because i happened to go up to the office to face off with one of the salesmen..

Lucky me.

Replied an email from some manager of the Saudi Arabia plant...??!!???
and there were people from M'sia emailing me also..
Just seemed to me that as my boss wasn't around...
she'll usually deal with the problem cases and all..
i'll have something interesting happening somewhere...
either on the emails...
or in the raw materials lab...
or in the finished goods lab..
work is NEVER done.

forced to prioritise..

like...DUH..
work given by the GM will obviously be settled first...
etc.

have to jaga the sick mates too...
told them to rest if they need to..
but not all at once..
take shifts or something...

and...

I DIDN'T have time for lunch the entire week!

whatever time i had during lunch...i was either reading or trying to cat nap..
really bad headache...
with all the running around and all..

ah wells...
that's about that for the moaning and groaning...

now the good stuff.

Good stuff is...this week really exposed me to many many high ranking people...
and well...taught me how to handle responsibility and everything...
and..the NEED to have good mates in the department and in various departments..
cuz at least they can either help you..or tell you where to go for help..

reckon i kinda have solutions to most of the problems...
just have to wait for the boss to get back to see what she says..
and i finally have a neat desk at work..
after clearing so many problems...cuz with each problem..i create a new pile of papers and stuff..so yeah..they're all gone. :D

Thank God for seeing my through this week..

and i'll be not going to work next thurs and fri!
gonna go for some ISO auditors course...
yeah baby...
i'm about to be an internal ISO auditor..
wahahaha...
more responsibilities..

BSc.

2007-07-04T22:49:00.001+08:00

finally finally finally GRADUATED!

and nope..there weren't any big dramas like me slipping/tripping/falling unglam-ly

tho i really thought that i would.

heh.

saw soooo many people that i've haven't seen for a gazillion years!

Jolene!

Thank YOU so much for coming and helping me with my gown and all...i know i'm a klutz..total klutz..

:DDDDD

wouldn't be able to do it without esther and your help!

and you stayed thru it all!!!!

hahaha..

ilu!

Esther!!

Thank You for the hand-made chocolates! They're Delicious sia...they're all gone already.

heh.

:)))

-satisfied grin-

Jasmine!!

You'll forever be my toilet buddy...together with Mun...

we with the small bladders must stick together!

i love all of you sia...

made the past 3.5years so much more bearable and exciting and fun!

all the nonsense that we did and talked about..

:)))

Finally...

THANK YOU Lord...

for seeing me thru it all..

even when i was far away...You were faithfully standing there by me..

i really couldn't have done anything without You.

COMMENCEMENT!

2007-07-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

COMMENCEMENT TMR!!!!!
WOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!!
kinda excited really...
heh.
finally 'officially graduate' liao!
:D
yayyayayayayayyayayay
:DDDDDDD
this is worth 1000000 hours mugging for papers!

can't believe i'm actually watching the videos that nus has..for the wearing for academic dress and what to do during the ceremony..
heh.

Rigidity.

2007-05-20T11:17:00.001+08:00

well...apparently the last post wasn't saved and i really cannot be bother to retype or recall, for that matter, what i blogged about.

anyway..
i'm pissed.
i find people being too rigid in their thinking, not flexible enough and not knowing when to stop.

for example..
today, my group occupied a table, but being overpopulated, there wasn't really enough space for everyone..and since everyone was fitting nicely in such a cramped up table..
i felt that there's no point for me to try to squeeze in..
thus i asked to join another group..which told me that i should join my group..
anyway..being the hot-head that i've always been.
i just left.

currently, some may already know that i'm having some problems going for bs..and now with this turn of events..it's not helping..

now i'm home..with no answers to today's lesson..and somehow because of all these 'events'..
i have a 'i can't be bothered' attitude also.
man...bloody thoughts of just not going in future are popping up all around my head too.

dammit.
but this is really not helping.

Everything happens in threes.

2007-03-05T21:32:00.000+08:00

Went movie watching yesterday with Eugene, Dennis and Sunny..
quite an interesting combination i reckon..
and well..it's interesting la..since i just found out yesterday that Sunny is only 19...and i thought he was way older than me..
heh.

right.
i always wanted to watch Letters..ever since the trailers came out..felt that it was a totally awesome show and all..i mean..it's a war show..and i'm actually INTERESTED in watching a war movie..that means ALOT la..

but i couldn't find ANYONE to watch it with me!
i mean..fine...my best reason to watch this show is..there's Ken Watanabe! He's seriously cool..even in Geisha..
pwoah.

anyway...to me...Iwo Jima is a foolish war..
foolish because..there was no way the Japanese would have won..
there were no reinforcements..plus as compared to the U.S fleets and planes..they were grossly outnumbered..
there was no way they could ever possibly win.
and yet..they fought on..because somehow along the way...the war wasn't something they were fighting for their emperor..instead..i felt that the only reason why they continued fighting was because of their families..
and..
hara-kiri is a damm bloody useless way of dying.
it's really really bloody..
my lunch was on the verge of coming up..
with brains blown and all..
yuck.

If our children can live safely for one more day it would be worth the one more day that we defend this island.

Prickly Heat.

2007-03-03T12:28:00.001+08:00

heh. this title is totally random.
anyway..
the ny was not very interesting or exciting.
fairly ok lor.

then..i got 3 ang pows from work.
:)
and...remember the letter which i've been meaning to write and send out to overseas people?
i've havent' done it yet.
damm tired lar.
and nua.

and i want to bum bum bum.

oh.
and i've got paid.
AGAIN.

i've been collecting paychecks every 2 weeks..
O__o
not fun.
because that means i've got to make my way to a quick check deposit.
sigh.
can't wait for them to transfer my pay into my account directly.

anyway. facial on sunday was interesting.
the thing was..
i was paying more attention to the foot bath massager thingy rather the facial..
cuz the facial is damm expensive la.
190bucks for 90mins!
pure madness.
and it's not as if my face is like in a horrible horrible state.
so well...
the footbath thingy is soo cool..and i bet it's pretty cheap too..
cuz it's some cheapo brand called 'princess'
wahahhaa.
right.
:)

and now i smell of dog shampoo...just gave ginger a bathe.
grawl.

Stagnant.

2007-02-24T16:35:00.000+08:00

And that's not just referring to the blog..
My life feels stagnant too.
I can almost feel the mossies breeding..
sigh..

This cny period seemed to roll by so fast..
Never really did get to bum around or spend time with Ginger..
she was alone out back most of the time..because we had to go visiting and stuff..

Work's fine as usual...didn't make many boo-boos..
finally on the verge of finishing a project..
and starting of another one..
which one is more fun..
hmm...i seriously have no idea..
the days after cny were super boring..mainly because many MANY people took off-days..so there wasn't much work to be done..
-shrugs-
and yours truly STILL cannot take leave yet.
grawl.

Tuition yesterday was fine.
Good because instead of me yada-ing all the time..
we jumped all the way to chemical equilibria due to her test next week.
nyeh..i was quite surprised at the information retained in my brain..since i've not really touch equilibria for eons eons eons.
and i got paid.
which is always a good thing.

talking about money.
i was forced to take an advance for my feb's salary..
which is to me..
unnecessary.
because.
if you're not giving me a bonus..i do not need any salary advancement even if it's for the new year.
i've got savings.
and by giving me an advance..because i'm still manually collecting cheques and all instead of them doing the nice cool salary transfer to my bank account..
i have to find a quick cheque deposit TWICE this month.
and i'm not banking in my POSB account..it's CITIBANK..whose quick cheque slots are harder to locate.
grawl.
i was so reluctant to collect the advancement..my boss was like..need to beg you to collect money.
.___.

sheese.

The Protégé is a mightly good show..
pretty much turned me off drugs for my entire lifespan.
even though i wasn't really into them in the beginning.
but it's a darn good show..
Went to watch it with Dennis...post v-day date..
hurhur.
did i mention the fact that daniel wu is HOT HOT HOT?
tho dennis was the one whispering to me that "his body is damm good sia" instead of me whispering..which makes it kinda weird since he's a guy and all.. heh
O__o

rights.

facial tomorrow.

-beams-

For the Year.

2007-02-12T21:34:00.001+08:00

This year...i've kinda decided...
I'll write a letter and post it to an overseas friend a month till like...whenever the person/people come back to singapore la..
heh.
so...
if you're not in town..
drop me a mail with your mailing address OR gimme your address when you see me online!
heh..
i hope this project won't die off like within a month la.. that would be too sad..
:)

Anyway...thank You for lobo queen..because You're teaching me a lesson in love..
me thinks that the hardest lesson ever is the lesson of love.
It's so hard to love.

but You loved me when i was unlovable.

As Requested.

2007-02-10T21:12:00.000+08:00

Cal/Zhenli...
as requested..

Darling Jia..
I've known you for like...what...eons? since sec 1...which makes it..about 10 years i reckon...
heh..you've been through many many nonsense with me...from kenneth the bloody irritating stalker to well...pretty much everything..
Stuff like my 1001 crushes..crushes from like...heh..adam and others that i've managed to pile up over the years..and considering the fact that i used to be able to have 5 crushes at a single moment..it's not all THAT surprising lar..and likes/dislikes and all my bitching, complaining and whining..
For being there since days in Crez, to PJ, to NUS....and yar...we have NEVER taken a single module together...although we WERE supposed to...tsk tsk..
After you left NUS and left me there alone...i missed our weekly lunch sessions lar...times when we'll just lunch together and i'll bitch about almost every single thing..and you'll just let me talk your ear off...heh.
I MISS YOU LAR.
especially now when you're almost never available at home..so i can't call you..AND...you're NEVER on msn..
grawl.
and i haven't updated you on my current crushes!
aiyoooo..seee....how liddat how...you missed so many chapters liao....
tsk tsk..

Happy Birthday Darling Jia.. :)))

ilu.

The L Word.

2007-02-05T20:45:00.000+08:00

Love is letting go of all your fears because you know your lover will accept them, will protect you. Love is not being joyful, but sharing the joy. Love is when the mere thought of separation rips your heart out. Love is one of those strong bonds that everyone knows of, yet no one can truly define. You can never know if in a certain moment you’ve fallen in Love, but you can always look back in time and realize that you did at that moment fall in Love. Love progresses and grows on its own if it is truly Love. Love is nurtured by being together, be it when surrounded by misery or joy. So long as Love is shared, it grows.

But the unrequited Love hurts more than can be imagined. Unrequited Love rips out your soul and tramples on it mercilessly. It can be accidental. It can be regretted. But unrequited Love helps you grow as a person.

You’ll never know if you truly fell in love, not until much time has passed and you can look back upon your past.

-catspal-

My Trust is in You.

2007-02-04T14:16:00.001+08:00

Thank You for loving me during the periods of which i was unlovable.

Mr Knightly.

2007-02-03T09:50:00.000+08:00

Right..i ought to give some names by which we can all erm...call my officemates by...
1) the Boss.
2) Lobo Queen aka My Future Roomie aka MFR
3) Starbucks Girl.
4) Popeye..from the last time..
haven't quite thought of names for the rest yet..
shall update this list soon..
but..obviously there's gonna be the Ah Beng and the Factory Girl..
hahahaha
i mean..
it's the same company..
some things never change..
:)

Je suis très fatigué.

2007-02-03T09:20:00.000+08:00

'Nuff said.

I fell sick over the weekend..had the cough bug...
went to work on monday coughing my guts out...feeling as sick as a dog..
came home...feeling lousy..
then...was forced to see the doctor...
had fever, flu, sore throat, cough.
was given a day's MC which i could not use..in any event..
1) i'm still on probation which means..no MCs...only no paid leave..
2) the company only recognises MC from govt clinics or the company doctor..

darn it.

the closest polyclinic would be clementi..
sigh.

am currently entertaining myself before work with...the business times and straits times..every single day.
and at home..it's pride and prejudice...some chick lit book..and some wealth book..
heh.

i'm currently thinking of investing some moolah into some stuff so as to let my money grow bigger and bigger and then i can retire soon.
heh.

anyway..i haven't been online for an entire week...even at work..i'm not online..
sounds so sad sia..but yeah..they haven't given me my internet access yet.
-shrugs-

ah wells...and since tmr's talk in yf would be about evolution...i've actully did some readings...fine..1 reading..from NatGeo.

Mr Knightly.

Doughnuts.

2007-01-27T08:16:00.000+08:00

Nyeh..first week of work's fine..i guess...not that much work to do yet..because of the external audits and all..but that over and done with..so like...now..everything's gonna start piling up soon..and i already made a boo-boo like on the 3rd day of work...damm sad lar...like...it was my bloody careless mistake..
mistook an '8' for a '0' on the calculator..dammit..
gah..am still beating myself up about it..
i shall never make this kind of mistake again.
Grawl.

on another note..modern amusement guy..i shall continue to call him MA guy..right..i dunno lar..met up with sybs on wed..she agreed totally that we have an 曖昧 r/s..heh..currently...from what i feel....everything is very 曖昧..including Tweedledee..
sigh..too confusing..can't be bothered already.

white flag

anyway..haven't quite gotten my internet password and all from the IT dept..so i can't send mindless emails to everyone seeking entertainment..can't email MA guy or Tweedledee.
:(
and everyone's at the lab has been fine...very nice...doesn't seem like i've been away much..hahaha..
but apparently everyone in the factory..aka the china guys..esp those that i'm quite ok with..keep assuming that i'm going off again soon..
he told me something like this...
you came the last time...stayed for 6mths..then left for 6mths..then came back for 2 weeks..then left for 6mths..when are you leaving now?
and i'm like...errr...either when i quit or when they fire me?

heh..
i'm seeking amusement in the most primitive way now..self-entertainment..
i get to work by 7.15am..because of some logistics issue...i get to have enough time to read my morning papers...and business times and all..if only i could get internet access..then i could blog..
and i'll prolly be getting an office like in 1-2mths time...sharing with this other chemist...
she's been there since aug..so far...from what i know...the rest of them aren't exactly chummy with her...they're more partial to me..
-shrugs-

ah wells...Starbucks girl managed to kop a mug for me..and passed it to me at work...i still have 1 more mug with her and an apron..heh.
and i'm supposed to get her willy wonka chocolate bar for her and 1.5dozen of donuts on sunday..wahaha..
we're funny in that way..
she'll go get those from donut factory..and i'll get mine from the donut place at vivocity..
each getting 1.5dozen..so we'll have 3dozen nuts in between us..
plenty to go around..
we're planning to have those for lunch..and decide on which place has the better nuts..since Starbucks girl hasn't got the chance to taste Krispy Kremes yet..
:)
something that i managed to have like...twice in november last year!
heh..
so nice.
righto..

Peaceout.

Amazed.

2007-01-22T11:00:00.000+08:00

Every once in a while..when i'm really really free...i get reminded of God's wonderful plan.

my 17 year old self would be unable to see the perfectness in His plan..but now..looking at the bigger picture..i'm astounded.

Currently...i'm amazed that i would land up in the same OG at Jing.
and i reckon that's where it all started.
being in the same OG meant that we were super duper close to each other..
a bond that never did break..
then from there...when we broke into our respective classes for the first 3 months..
she ended up in the same class as alicia.
and being close...i became an unofficial member of that class as well..
i can still remember the day when i crashed her class..
the maths teacher was like...we have a new student..
and everyone else was like..yar! transfer student from njc..
O__o
like rights..
plus..jing is obviously connected to jun...and has been connected to him ever since young..due to the fact that they're neighbours.
so..i got to know jun too.
after the results were released..she ran for council..i made my class vote for her and alicia.
heh..
then from council..we became friends with aileen and peter...
and thus, the pjc cell group emerged.
and from them..i made new friends like jon, xiangyu and all..
it's like a chain growth reaction with no termination..
i like..
and obviously..
because of shangjun...jing went to fmc..
and then...i got into fmc..
and new friends were added into the foray..
agnes, pam, eugene, sharon, jem, tiff..
and i've no idea how or why..i'm accepted as being part of the class..even though i was never in the same class as them..maybe it's just stems from the fact that we're all from the 1984 batch.
and the wonderful thing is..they just accepted me with..well..no questions asked.
and i couldn't ask for a better or more perfect class to be in.
:))
then from the class..it grew to yf..and by yf..it includes kids that are not in singapore for a good part of the year...
it's amazing lar...the power of 1 person to start a whole ball running..

To Ginge.

2007-01-22T09:53:00.000+08:00

He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be wothy of such devotion.
- K9 Shiloh Dawg Skool's Calender for 2007

Within the past 5 months..never before has a pet affected me in such a way as ginger has. Made changes in my sleeping cycle for her. And it may seem weird, but the fact is...i am her leader. and prolly the love of her life..because i'm the hand that feeds her..and she recognises that fact as well..with her thrusting titles such as "You are his life, his love, his leader", it makes you want to protect her from every single boo-boo that comes her way..and it's also through her that you learn that 'to be a leader, you must first learn to serve.' Serve in areas such as picking her poo-poo and clearing her pee-pee..you realised that she's dependent on you for EVERYTHING. from her everyday meals to her weekly bathes...she trusts you to ensure that she's free from fleas and ticks..and that you'll be home to feed her dinner..because there's no way she's able to prepare dinner for herself..nyeh.
i may not be the best leader now..and i do make mistakes..but she forgives me within 5mins of MY boo-boo..
sheese...
i love ginger.
the hyperactively friendly dog who managed to worm her way thru the innermost recesses of my heart in superquick time.

Nonsense.

2007-01-22T08:53:00.000+08:00

(( [ B0LD THE TV SH0WS Y0U WATCH ] ))
1. Full House
2. Gilmore Girls
3. 7th Heaven
4. The OC
5. Degrassi
6. American Idol
7. One Tree Hill
8. Summerland
9. Pimp My Ride
10. Next
11. Extreme Makeover
12. Hope and Faith
13. Everybody Loves Raymond
14. Survior
15. Thats So Raven
16. Boy Meets World
17. Step by Step
18. Blues Clues
19. Zoey 101
20. Unfabulous
21. Spongebob
22. Rocket Power
23. Rugrats
24. All Grown Up
25. Romeo
26. Nanny 911
27. The Simpsons
28. Wheel Of Fortune
29. Friends
30. Hells Kitchen
31. Xtreme Fakeovers
32. ER
33. Suite Life of Zack & Cody
34. Sister,Sister
35. Lizzie McGuire
36. CSI
37. Who's Line is It Anyways?
38. Law& Order
39. Dave Chapelle Show
40. South Park
41. Newlyweds
42. Frasier
43. 70's Show
44. Strip Search
45. The Real World
46. Maury
47. People's Court
48. Catdog
49. Dora The Explorer
50. The Buzz On Maggie

(( [ B0LD THE M0ViES Y0U'VE SEEN ] ))
1. Mean Girls
2. Bring it On
3. Lizzie McGuire Movie
4. Pirates of the Carribean
5. Garfield
6. Cat in the Hat
7. Titanic
8. Pearl Harbor
9. How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
10. Along Came Polly
11. I Won a Date with Tad Hamilton
12. 50 First Dates
13. Signs
14. Scary Movie 3
15. Rose Red
16. It
17. Sleepover
18. Bring It on 2
19. Miss Congenilty
20. Miss Congenilty 2
21. Fast && Furious
22. Cinderella
23. Lion King
24. Little Mermaid
25. Harry Potter 1
26. Harry Potter 2
27. Harry Potter 3
28. Legally Blonde
29. You Got Served
30. Honey
31. Hot Chicks
32. White Chicks
33. Blue Crush
34. Hildago
35. Lemmony Snickets
36. Racing Stripes
37. Love Actually
38. Man of The House
39. Diary of a Mad Black Woman
40. Are We There yet?
41. Haunted Mansion
42. Ice Princess
43. Madagascar
44. Batman 2
45. Million Dollar Baby
46. Shark Tale
47. Jaws
48. Coach Carter
49. Notebook
50. Little Black Book

me thinks that i'm a bona fide couch potato... :)

Lullaby for a Stormy Night.

2007-01-19T19:53:00.000+08:00

Sometimes we project our romantic desires onto others, then internalize them as though as though they were true. Sometimes a flirtatious smile, comment, or gesture can be read as having more meaning than was originally intended. We incubate them, until they grow to have a life of their own.

-Phlin-

Basement.

2007-01-18T09:53:00.001+08:00

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,".....that's her."

Waiting on the World to Change.

2007-01-18T09:53:00.000+08:00

After a thoughly satisfying meal of laksa and nasi lemak..we had that and that..
niceeee :)
shared a mudster..nicenicenicenicenice

right...in other news...
i'll be going for my medical tomorrow..and if nothing else goes wrong...
i'll be employed by tuesday..

and so..that's about that.

so...i'm still free to bum on monday! :)

So I must find my fears and face them
Or I’ll cower like a dog
I’ll kick and scream or kneel and bleed
I’ll fight like hell to hide that I’m giving up

曖昧.

2007-01-17T17:20:00.001+08:00

Why do i always let you do this to me?
dammit.
i need more willpower.

曖昧 is really a very horrible thing, no?
ambigiuity..sigh..
how very much easier life would be without it..
removing the need of double guessing and searching for hidden meanings...
life is basically a never-ending game of Cluedo...i suppose..
after solving a mystery/problem..the next game starts..

anyhows...
i recieved a very interesting present...
still analyzing it..
maybe over analyzing it..
but well..i am prone to over complicate simple matters..

Guess!

2007-01-17T09:12:00.000+08:00

Come on...make a guess..
what new book am i reading now?
albeit the fact that i'm prone to juggle a few books at a time..
but what's the latest one that i'm reading?

``Pride,'' observed Mary, who piqued herself upon the solidity of her reflections, ``is a very common failing I believe. By all that I have ever read, I am convinced that it is very common indeed, that human nature is particularly prone to it, and that there are very few of us who do not cherish a feeling of self-complacency on the score of some quality or other, real or imaginary. Vanity and pride are different things, though the words are often used synonimously. A person may be proud without being vain. Pride relates more to our opinion of ourselves, vanity to what we would have others think of us.''

oh..and ginger's better already..at least i don't have to coax her to have her meals...
AND i don't have to add rice or peanut butter to get her interested in it.. :)

Dear God,
It is great the way you always get the stars in the right places.
Jeff

I think he forgot how to smile.

2007-01-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

and..

i think he forgot what happiness is..

Dear God,
I don't ever feel alone since I found out about you.
Nora

Mr Darcy.

2007-01-16T19:05:00.001+08:00

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."

-Grey's Anatomy, Don't Stand So Close To Me

Dear God,
I didn't think orange went with purple until I saw the sunset you made on Tue. That was cool.
Eugene

Fossil.

2007-01-16T12:44:00.001+08:00

i just remembered..
i need a watch..
new watch!
yay.
still browsing tho.

Dear God--
Put another holiday between Christmas and Easter. There is nothing good in there now.
Ginny

Ginger.

2007-01-16T11:31:00.000+08:00

Ginger's errr...not exactly injured...but..not exactly normal either...
i suspect that she might have a sore paw or something..
might be due to a weird sleeping position...
not too sure..
she hasn't been eating her meals..since sunday night...
and i have to coax her to eat..and drink..
like feeding her with a spoon..and holding the water bowl for her to lap her water from...
it's quite tiring...especially when she decided that she's sick of her food..
i have to add stuff like peanut butter to make her WANT to eat the food..
and the poor girl didn't managed to nap at all yesterday..because her head can't touch the ground..
so the entire day..she was either standing and zoning into space...
or standing around watching cars zoom past and all..
yeah...
still trying to locate the source of her discomfort tho...
she stepped on my foot last night..and started whining...
but after examining her paw...i couldn't find anything wrong..and..she's not even limping..
so..
-shrugs-
sigh...poor girl...

Dear God,
How come you didn't invent any new animals lately? We still have just all the old ones.
Johny

Children's Letters To God

2007-01-16T09:57:00.000+08:00

Taiwan Trip 2006. 13-12-06 till 19-12-06

2007-01-12T14:14:00.000+08:00

Just to prove Calyn wrong.
I went to taiwan for the holidays. It was fun.
went to taipei, tainan, taichung, and back to taipei.
i love taiwan tv channels.
heh.
that's about that i reckon.
the food in taiwan is amazing lar...AMAZING.
even their food court set meals are super nice lar!

errr...i took about 500over pictures...and i'm too lazy to do anything about it..so..
heh.. :)
the best beef noodles ever..

Dear God,
Instead of letting people die and having to make new ones, why don't you just keep the ones you got now?
Jane

Psychometric Testing.

2007-01-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

People are generally keen to gain your approval. When you make what you term as "proper friends" you tend to stay with them through thick and thin.
You are outgoing and cheery and have no problem being in the lime light. In fact you rather like it
You naturally take charge of a situation and are very good at getting things done.
You like variety and get bored if there isn't enough of it.
You thrive on the good things in life believing that we only pass this way once and should make the most of it, and by golly you do!
You really are quite romantic but don’t worry too much about this as it soon wears off!
Smart cars, good food wine dancing and song would ensure you were making the most of living the high life.
If these are not currently in your life they are certainly high on your agenda and a life style you aspire to.
You crave recognition, and bask in the glow from compliments especially if they are about how competent you are

超喜歡你 - 飛輪海

2007-01-09T16:18:00.000+08:00

東：心跳快得很可怕　　
呼吸大到有氣壓　　
手心冒汗可以澆花
綸：生活變四格漫畫　　
喜怒哀樂被放大　　
身不由己沒有辦法
怎麼可以這樣　怎麼可以這樣　瘋狂
怎麼可以這樣　怎麼可以這樣　愛超出了想像就算
世界與我為敵　我超喜歡你
超喜歡你　不能分離　我只相信這個真理
百無禁忌　萬夫莫敵　我超喜歡你
我慢慢不能清醒　終於不想清醒根本不用清醒　這個惡作劇
尊：想要對你說的話　　　
身體已替我表達　　
一旦愛了不能作假
東：一度覺得很頭大　　　
懷疑細胞有偏差　　
可是愛了沒有辦法
就是可以這樣　就是可以這樣瘋狂
就是可以這樣　就是可以這樣　愛超出了想像
就算世界與我為敵　我超喜歡你
超喜歡你　不能分離　我只相信這個真理
百無禁忌　萬夫莫敵　我超喜歡你
我慢慢不能清醒　終於不想清醒
根本不用清醒　這個惡作劇
大東的ＲＡＰ：我超喜歡你　是我放在我心裡好久的秘密
我不敢告訴你　甚至沒有勇氣說服我自己　
我問問上帝　要怎麼突破我們之間的距離　
站在原地　腳已往前　又怕嚇到你　
我號稱黃金右腳　橫衝直撞　天下無敵　自由來去
怎麼踏進這個禁區馬上敗在你手裡
就算世界與我為敵　我超喜歡你
超喜歡你　不能分離　我只相信這個真理
百無禁忌　萬夫莫敵　我超喜歡你
我慢慢不能清醒　終於不想清醒
根本不用清醒　這個惡作劇
就算世界與我為敵　我超喜歡你
超喜歡你　不能分離　我只相信這個真理
百無禁忌　萬夫莫敵　我超喜歡你
我慢慢不能清醒　終於不想清醒
根本不用清醒　這個惡作劇

小乌龟

2007-01-05T11:24:00.000+08:00

After watching like 2.5 taiwanese dramas in the past half a year...
i conclude..
guys like dumb girls..

i mean...seriously..
it makes sense..just like how girls like guys who are smart..
case reference 1 --> it started with a kiss..
the 'dumb' girl managed to end up with the hawttt and super duper ultra smart guy..
case reference 2 --> smiling pasta..
it's just another cinderella story..which happens to be nice..
so..
like...
maybe airheads aren't all THAT stupid afterall.

hmm..
maybe.

Bonne année.

2007-01-03T07:49:00.000+08:00

2006 has been interesting...and in a way...quite eventful.
well...
firstly...i've got a new niece.
then 2 days later...i landed with a new puppy.
and then there was hours of shit duty...
toilet training..
1st month celebrations..
dog training..
and kidnapping of baby gwen..
that followed.
currently..
gwen was spotted talking to ginger in baby language..
no idea if dog language is similar to baby gurgle..
-shrugs-
and then..
i ended my nus 'career' on a high..
well..not to some people la.. but to me..definately a high.

and it's things like that that remind me how wonderful my God is.
like...
1. i always wanted a dog..but after recieving 'NO' so many times from my parents..i sorta decided that i'll get it when i get my own place to live in..and so...i kinda stopped harbouring any desire for a dog..that was like..sometime in sec/jc, i reckon...didn't do anything about it...didn't pray etc. nada.
then...out of the blue...i've got ginger..and considering the fact that she's a golden retriever...i didn't have too much problem getting the parental approval. in fact it was more of the lines of...
'so how? want the golden retriever? want to see issit? ok can.' the whole decision making process lasted less than 30mins. we got the dog like 2 days after i saw her. fast right...i know..

it's stuff like that...things that i myself may have inadvertably forgotten over the years...or filed away as things to do in the future..and that's that.
the future wasn't here yet...at least not to me..
but then...apparently...God hasn't forgotten my prayers...and well...my idea of 'the future' isn't the same as His idea of 'the future'..and really...
His timing was good..it was really good..
because...
i got Ginger during the last sem...where i was just basically bumming lar..
i had to finish 3 modules..and that was that.
3 modules of my choice...nothing heavy and stuff...except french..which was interesting.. :)
i had school on 2 days...and 2hrs of tutorial on another day...
so i had ALOT of time to spend with ginger during her first few months in the family..
if i had her after i started work..
who's gonna toilet train her?
toilet training itself was really time consuming..
but it's soo cool when she'll just open the kitchen sliding door and go to her toilet and all when it's raining.. :D
nyeh.

'twas a good year...and well...may '07 be a good year too :)

Food Glorious Food.

2006-12-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

Off to Taiwan for a week..
cya when i get back.

Je pense; donc, je suis..

2006-12-06T08:19:00.000+08:00

你喜歡的人是我, 不可以喜歡别人…你不要…你不要喜歡上别人…

-iswak

From my favorite episode in 惡作劇之吻...

started this show last week...and it's super good..i'm gonna buy it in taiwan..if i remember.. :)) and because of this...i seriously feel that my chinese is improving!

anyway..i've been really busy these days...

sent my CVs out...some CVs..

been meeting jing..nick and even alicia...who seemed to have gone into hiding for a sem..

got jing's chrissy present done and given..

b'day present..still in the works..

hmmm...
we took neoprints..plus...my feet sprouted blisters...sheese...pain...

brought them for facial...

hahaha..

that was a laugh for me..

jing was super funny...

ultra low tolerance for pain..

:D

Yesterday met the neighbour for breakfast! haven't seen him for quite long...i remember the last time i spotted him...i almost drove my car into him...luckily he has no idea..and it wasn't really THAT scary la...i was like trying to figure if it was him..and the car was like...well..yar.. :)
so full lar...like his stomach shrunk! 2 of us can't finish 2 plates of carrot cake...1 white, 1 black..and 2 big cups of soya bean milk.. O__o

anyway...Ah kong rocks lar!
i was haven't insane thoughts roaming around my brain...and all he did was...i show you this picture..
hehhhh...
i forgot EVERYTHING else..
wahahaha...mannnn....Pete knows wad to do in times of crisis! hehh.

rapideyemovement.

2006-12-01T07:53:00.000+08:00

Rights.
So i'm out of school now.
this chapter of my life is coming to an end...i'll prolly only close it once i get my degree tho..
:)
Had PR1301 Complementary and Alternative Medicine on Saturday morning..9am..MPSH5 seat number 331..
Had EC1301 Economics on Tuesday afternoon..1pm...MPSH2A seat 306..

chop chop summary..

went home for dinner with my mum..before heading off to china(town) for tong shui with jing and daph..
we were like...blur tourists trying to locate a tong shui shop that wasn't closed.
after walking around the ENTIRE china...

next day...wednesday...went for facial...from 11.30 till 2.30!
so shiok...cuz there wasn't any customers yet..too early..
the benefits of being the early bird.. :)
then headed to holland to meet nickeroos at breko...and i got my krispy kremes!
:)
more about that later..
anyway...after meeting him...met up with my nus girls..jas and jolene...esther had to take a raincheck...the baby needs her..
O_o
yeah..

thursday...
went out with nick and jing...as usual...i was 30mins early...they were...30mins late..
O_o
right..i was bumming around in kino..and the german and french books dept.
i'm always at that area lar...if not..it's the next section...which is the kids section with my french or german books reading...
borders don't have language section mar..
:)
then we technically...spent the day eating...
let's see...
after meeting...i bought royce..
then..jing and i had $1 ice cream..
headed to heeren..had sakae...LOUSY service..
was quite upset with the service attitude and everything..
we had...
i had my ebiko..and chawanmushi...jing had..amaebi and chawanmushi...nick had...california roll and chawanmushi..
yeah..
then we left..
to cine..jing bought famous amos..
then we decided to go lucky plaza...for pool...
haven't played in donkey years lar...
i'm like tyco queen..pure luck..no skill..
unless you consider me skillfully lucky..
-shrugs-
after an hour of that..we went to far east...
on the way...nick bought ba gua..
reached far east...had chicken rice...
after that...went for coffee at borders...
and then it was a powerful digressing session la
like ultimate..
we can start from person A...and end up at...sperm banks..
O__o
heh..
ah wells..
i've missed them..

but today...i need a break...need to clear my other nonsense...

and PAMELA is Back! :)))))

Je suis désolée.

2006-11-13T09:21:00.000+08:00

Just realised that i haven't been blogging for > 1mth.
i've been really busy la..
and like...if you wanna see ginger's photo..
please head over to calyn's blog.
a pretty old picture is there..
she looks much cuter..and slightly fatter now.
and to illustrate how long i've not been blogging or blogsurfing..
Rene had to ask me whether Ginger's fatter..and i'm like..how did you even know she's skinny in the first place?
and she was like..oh..saw it on calyn's blog.
right.
so..
my friends have pictures of my dog in cyberspace even before me.
righto.
it's been 3 months already..
and..
-drumrolls-
the most exciting thing that happened the past week.
1. Ginger PASSED her exam!
2. Ginger managed to fracture her paw BY HERSELF, and STILL pass her exam.
3. errrr...had my pharmacy test...and i hate XINGREN by the way. stupid almonds. that's 1 mark gone.

anyway..got back french and was quite happy with the grades.
but it was pure luck i suppose..
like who gets 19/20 for listening compre? in FRENCH?
the written comprehension also helped pulled up lousy grammer scores too.
and there's ANOTHER french test this friday..plus french oral this thursday.
i'm gonna have to survive on french fries and delifrance these few days.
and after friday..
French is over..baby.
2 more papers before the end of my term in NUS.
bah.
humbug.
seems so final when you see it in this perspective.
bleah.
righto.
so now i'm headed to UT's website to do french stuff..their's are much better than NUS..
-shrugs-
right..
so i'll see you guys in a month..or hopefully lesser.
:)
find me on msn if there's a need...or...just call/text me.
:)

OH.
Guess who's going to watch Phantom next year?
MEMEEMEMEMEME

Schwweettt.

Princess Gwen.

2006-10-05T09:29:00.000+08:00

Gwen Gwen!

errrrr...should be less than a month old.

Sooooo cute and pretty right?

heh.

Elizabethan Collar.

2006-10-05T08:07:00.000+08:00

Ginger's fine.
Up and running in fact.
She was abit woozy and bumbling around like a buffoon since after her operation and for the better part of yesterday..
she has to wear an elizabethan collar la..
it would make anyone stumble.
cuz her estimation skill went to the dogs..
a normal turn that would take about x amt of space...now requires at least 2x to complete it successfully.
she forgets about her collar sometimes and goes 'wham, bang, bam' around the house.
we too forget that she has an ugly collar and to give her more allowances when walking her to various parts of the house..causing much 'ouch' and 'Grawl.' to be heard.
tuesday night was horrible.
she refused to sleep properly..
might be due to space constraints, pent-up frustration with her huge head shield, pain from the operation, hunger pangs, thirst..
many factors i reckon..
and because of that..i suffered too.
from 10-1 i was periodically awaken telling her to lie down..or at least sit..
then we thought she wanted water or something..so after the hard time i had putting her in..i had to take her out..and found that she didn't want to pee/poo/water.
:(
so i bunked on the sofa..and she slept on the floor...
started to get cramps on my right arm..cuz i'm still holding onto her leash la..
we shifted to my brother's room..
see..because of the op..
everyone slept in my room to be near her...
i was kicked off the bed and on the floor..
while mom and dad took the bed..and my bro somehow shifted in..
nyeh.
the point was..
besides my room..
everywhere else was empty..
so i plonked on the bed..
she plonked on the floor.
that was at 3am..
woke up at 5.30 to give her food..
poor thing didn't have food since the previous day..
tsk tsk..
so anyway..
she's pretty much the same now..except with the collar..
so she can't scratch her head..
and she can't lick herself..
which is superb.
last night was da bomb!
she slept through it all.
:D
pwah.
so happy.
at least until 6.45am.. when she had to release the floodgates of the yellow river..
ladeeda.

Thank you all for your prayers!
:)
Ginger thanks u too!

pictures should be soon..after econs test on monday.
and french oral today.
:(

Light a Million Candles.

2006-10-02T12:21:00.000+08:00

Light a candle for the innocent victims of online child abuse.

Gwen Gwen.

2006-10-02T09:44:00.000+08:00

Happy 2nd month baby gwen gwen!
:)

and please pray for little ginger.
Operation tmr..
gonna get her spayed.
gah.

pray that everything will be fine..that she won't hurt too much..that the wound heals fast.

thankGod.

2006-10-02T09:34:00.001+08:00

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I love you God!
-mwah!-

thankGod.

2006-10-02T09:34:00.000+08:00

I love you God!
-mwah!-

Ginger.

2006-09-30T11:05:00.000+08:00

Been busy with the same old things..
Ginger.

dog training..playing with her..troubleshooting her many problems..
and trying to get my projects done.
so far..the projects are 95% done..just have to proof read them once more and that's that.

test on tuesday.
super boring.
TCM.
:(

french oral on thurs.
haven't even started on that..same goes for french homework that's gonna be due on thurs.

in short.
i'm just super tired.

but having a dog just makes it all worth it sometimes..especially she's good and listens to me..
grawl.

i need to find a nice dog bed.

The Kite Runner.

2006-09-11T09:20:00.000+08:00

Was supposed to blog about this piece of work like a couple of weeks ago..
but..as you can see from the previous entries..i'm TOO busy.
and i forgot about it all..until just now..when i was blog-surfing thru a friend's site and all.
rights.

Let me tell you this..This book is Absolutely Amazing.
I finished it in 1 sitting.
from 11pm to 2am.
No breaks. No nothing.
Just me, my book and my bed..
oh..and a box of tissues by my side..because this book makes you cry.
serious!
i mean..the Time traveller's wife was a pretty good book too..but i only managed to finish it in multiple sittings..and i didn't cry.
so.
This Book is superb.
Go buy it, borrow it or anything.
Just get your hands on a copy.
i borrowed mine from the library.
-shrugs-

This book made me sad. Not for the characters per se. But for humanity as a whole. It just transports you away from your privileged life, and into a land torn apart by despair, by war.

nyeh. instead of putting you thru the agony of a review that won't do justice to this piece of work..
i'm gonna copy a review from Amazon.com

Reviewer:
Ron Franscell, Author of FALL -
The earth turns and the wind blows and sometimes some marvelous scrap of paper is blown against the fence for us to find. And once found, we become aware there are places out there that are both foreign and familiar. Funny what the wind brings.
And now it brings "The Kite Runner," a beautiful novel by Afghan-American Khaled Hosseini that ranks among the best-written and provocative stories of the year so far.
Hosseini's first novel -- and the first Afghan novel to be written originally in English -- "The Kite Runner" tells a heartbreaking story of the unlikely friendship between Amir, the son of a wealthy Afghan businessman, and Hassan, the son of his father's servant. Amir is Sunni; Hassan is Shi'a. One is born to a privileged class; the other to a loathed minority. One to a father of enormous presence; the other to a crippled man. One is a voracious reader; the other illiterate.
The poor Hassan is born with a hare lip, but Amir's gaps are better hidden, deep inside.
Yet Amir and Hassan live and play together, not simply as friends, but as brothers without mothers. Their intimate story traces across the expansive canvas of history, 40 years in Afghanistan's tragic evolution, like a kite under a gathering storm. The reader is blown from the last days of Kabul's monarchy -- salad days in which the boys lives' are occupied with school, welcome snows, American cowboy movies and neighborhood bullies -- into the atrocities of the Taliban, which turned the boys' green playing fields red with blood.
This unusually eloquent story is also about the fragile relationship fathers and sons, humans and their gods, men and their countries. Loyalty and blood are the ties that bind their stories into one of the most lyrical, moving and unexpected books of this year.
Hosseini's title refers to a traditional tournament for Afghan children in which kite-flyers compete by slicing through the strings of their opponents with their own razor-sharp, glass-encrusted strings. To be the child who wins the tournament by downing all the other kites -- and to be the "runner" who chases down the last losing kite as it flutters to earth -- is the greatest honor of all.
And in that metaphor of flyer and runner, Hosseini's story soars.
And fear not, gentle reader. This isn't a "foreign" book. Unlike Boris Pasternak's "Dr. Zhivago," Hosseini's narrative resonates with familiar rhythms and accessible ideas, all in prose that equals or exceeds the typical American story form. While exotic Afghan customs and Farsi words pop up occasionally, they are so well-defined for the reader that the book is enlightening and fascinating, not at all tedious.
Nor is it a dialectic on Islam. Amir's beloved father, Baba, is the son of a wise judge who enjoys his whiskey, television, and the perks of capitalism. A moderate in heart and mind, Hosseini has little good to say about Islamic extremism.
"The Kite Runner" is a song in a new key. Hosseini is an exhilaratingly original writer with a gift for irony and a gentle, perceptive heart. His canvas might be a place and time Americans are only beginning to understand, but he paints his art on the page, where it is intimate and poignant.

Bonjour!

2006-09-11T08:46:00.000+08:00

Realised I haven't blogged in quite a bit..
Busy lar
Anyway..
Ginger has been promoted and is now sleeping in my room's toilet..
this was because she was shitting and pee-ing in her area even tho she wasn't supposed to..
lance reckoned that she's seeking attention..
right.
and attention at 5am in the morning is what i can't give.
so...she's in my toilet for now..in case she pees or shiets..
then it'll be easier for me to clean..
but if she continues with this good behaviour...
she'll prolly get upgraded to sleeping in my room..and not just the toilet.
:)
her toilet's quite ok already..
and whenever it screws up..it's when everyone's ignoring her..
my dog is a bleeding attention seeker..
O___o

and she's soooo cute.
:)))))

gah.
suddenly..
the pile of homework and tests and projects seem to be growing exponentially.
i really do have to start clearing some of those.
sigh.
bugger.
bug.
bug.

1 month(s) and all.

2006-09-04T09:20:00.000+08:00

It's been 1month and 2 days since baby gwen was born.
It's been a month since Ginger came over.
It's been a month since i've slept until 10am without waking up in the midst of it.

1 month but it felt like time zoomed by.

Anyway.
There was a horrific accident on saturday..just outside my place..
You know..the road towards harbourfront..
and literally 'Just outside my place'.

My bro, Ginger, and I were downstairs..at around 9pm..
Studying, bumming, and studying...respectively.
then there was this 'Boom!'
and we thought something screwed up with the Circle Line...a generator overload or something.
and there was smoke.
so..being the kaypohs that we are..
we ran to the backgate..
Apparently an NTUC van collided into the pillar support the highway..
and the entire front section was crushed inwards.
we were prolly the 2nd group of people at the scene.
Got my brother to call 995..
and
after a few hours
Someone said that one guy died on impact..the other was surviving..but barely.
after an hour+ they managed to get the guy out and into the ambulance..
they tried towing the vehicle.
then sawed the door.
then finally climbed to the roof and got him out..
-__-
kinda brings the meaning of inefficiency to a whole new level.
and i'm so buay song but how they had to cordone off the area outside my place..
JUST because there were too many people watching.
like...it's not even on this side of the road.
-___-
but then again..it doesn't really matter..because it's 'JUST OUTSIDE MY PLACE'
and most of us nosy parkers live very nearby.
so..we took our cards out..entered our private estate..
and stood there and watched.
view-wise..not much of a difference..just that we were slightly elevated..and a few metres further..
-shrugs-
anyway...
it was like...the fragility of life.

ironic that the next day's event would be a celebration of life..and i was witness to the passing of one.

From Daphne's blog.

2006-08-23T10:22:00.000+08:00

Supposed to have added this here eons ago..
ah wells..
From Daph's blog..
and..i don't remember being in your PE class leh...and i DO NOT traumatize people...THEY traumatize me...and...the jumping...i blame jing..i'm not really obsessed with germany...or maybe i am..but that's because i took german for a while...and germany's nice wad...

1. I’ll respond with something random about you
– You used to be in my PE class.
2. I’ll challenge you to try something
– Spend a week without traumatizing people
3. I’ll pick a colour that I associate with you
– Yellow. Happy color.
4. I’ll tell you something I like about you
– How you’re so in control of your life
5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
– It had something to do with you and Jing Jing jumping around outside the council room. 0.o
6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of
– Monkey. Cos you jump around too much. Muahahahaha.
7. I’ll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you
– Why are you so obsessed with German(y)? Heh.

Overdue.

2006-08-23T10:02:00.000+08:00

This post is long overdue..
sorry la..
with waking up at 7am to feed Ginger and clean her pee and shiet..
and then bumming around and off to school..
not much time to blog..

anyway...
COUSIN!
HOW ON EARTH DID YOU MANAGE TO FIND MY BLOG?
better don't tell anyone else ar...
Mummy's been trying to get the address from me..
O__o
Sheese.

errrr..
had my first official french lesson last night..
and it was sooo funny!
cuz...altho i'm not particularly fluent in german..
i can do my ABCs in german from memory..
and i can intro myself and well..the simple stuff..
and we were doing the simple stuff last night for french..
and i was mentally going through it in GERMAN!
aiyo..
headache ar..
sheese...
think that german's easier..but i may be biased..
-shrugs-

ah wells..
Je m'appelle Jamie. Et toi?
:)

Econ's is pretty alright...i reckon...
got a ra-ra lecturer...
-rolls eyes-
and apparently my bro has already borrowed the recommended text for his own use..
so yay me.

Complementary Medi is fine..
the lecturer for tues is much more interesting than friday..
cuz he was telling us jokes and stuff..
we reckon that per lecturer...he has at least 1 joke to tell..
and he said that it's not easy to 'slot' the jokes in the lecture...so he want us to listen to his jokes..
O___o
heh.

rights...

oh..
ever since monday..ginger's been barking at the featherduster..
O__o
cuz it's unknown to her..
and it's multi-coloured..
and she barks lor..

Off to Harbourfront for lunch later..
:)

Cal...do you want to jaga Ginger every Wed...for about an hour? while i go for lunch?

Question.

2006-08-08T10:23:00.000+08:00

Am I worth it?

I don't know about You, but I don't think I'm worth it.

Grawl.

2006-08-08T09:32:00.000+08:00

Right...
haven't been updating much..
and there's plenty of news.

2nd Aug 2006 at 2.59pm,
my darling beautiful fat little niece was born.
she's like the michelin man...only cuter.
:)
her eyes are quite big la..as compared to mine..
and her mouth is never closed.
and so much hair..and no eyebrows.
:)
wahaha..
prettty.

4th of Aug 2006,
i got a puppy.
only 5months old.
size is about a full grown small dog..at the moment.
she's a golden retriever.
yeah.
but she's not summer.
Summer's not MY dog.
:)
My dog's Ginger.
as in...
yes..the breadman.
and yes..the one to cook with steamed fish.
and yes..the one where cal can cook with fishcake..
yar.
Ginger.

She's in the midst of toilet training classes and 'don't anyhow bark' classes.
and it's jialat lar..
i've been cleaning floors the past few days.
then let her out of her area yesterday.
and she toilet-ed everywhere.
i kenna scolding for the entire evening lar...
hai.
so back to training school.
i'm damm sleepy man.
a puppy is like a baby.
barks when she can't see you..
can't sleep if she can't see you..
barks when she's hungry..
aiyo...

yup..
but i'm happy.
:)
i'm trying to be happy cleaning shiet.
because if i'm not cleaning shiet..
that means i ain't got no dog.

Financial Planning 101

2006-08-01T21:56:00.000+08:00

Was reading a friend's blog just now..
he was telling of how he's in deficit and stuff like that..
like you know..
how the output > input?
yeah.

i don't know..
but to me...
this has never happened to me.

i mean...i do indulge in reckless shopping urges and stuff..
but i always believe in this rule of thumb..
that my mother lives by...and drilled into her kids.
Live Within Your Means.

simple ain't it?

like...let's say...in cgs days..
i was getting in an allowance of 30bucks per week..
i think..
so...if i happen to want to get this cd..
that would set me back by 20bucks.
leaving me with 10bucks for food and stuff.
and if i spend 2bucks per day on recess (food + drink)
i'll have enough to get me by for the 5 days..
excluding cca day..saturday.
during which...i'll just makan with the family lor..
but that would mean that i can't pop by to mobil to buy snacks and stuff..
plus...that would also mean that i don't get to save any money for that week.

then...
in sec 3 and 4...my friends and i started to cultivate expensive habits..
instead of lunching in the school canteen..where there's cheap and decent school meals...
we had to take a bus down to town..
go into isetan's supermarket..
select sushi...
plus some drink in nice looking bottles which cost like 2bucks?
and then tapao everything back to school..
to study in school.
running in and out to mobil to grab chips, chocolate bars and what-nots along the way.
luckily for me..
we didn't stay back in school to study everyday.
heng ar...
and yar..
that thought me how to balance my finances again.
see..
if i were to have a 'good' meal...which would set me back about 5-10bucks.
i would have to make do with cheaper meals for the rest of the week..

and now...
it's integrated into my lifestyle i supposed..
tho i'm getting much more than what i used to get..
i pretty much spend it the same way..
plus i always set targets for my bank balance..
my personal account..
like...the amount should not drop below this amount..
and then i'll just balance my spending accordingly..
the thing is..
let's say...my account now has 1.2k..
whatever i do...i will not let it drop past 1k..
same goes if it's 2.1k...cannot drop past 2k..
and that's how the amount keeps increasing i reckon.

guess it's all about self control.

whoever spends $600+ on FOOD a month?
seriously..
even if i eat out everyday for all my meals..i don't even chalk up that amount in a month lar!
goodness.
live within your means.
-shakes head-
one doesn't have to eat in a restaurant every single meal..or eat overpriced sandwiches..or drink overpriced coffee..
it's an INDULGENCE...not a lifestyle..
you can also MAKE sandwiches at home...for like what...5 times cheaper the price?
and it's not just 1 sandwich you're making..can prolly make like 10 sandwiches..
and if you really need a cuppa to start your day..
homemade nescafe is pretty good too...unless you like me, can't mix a decent cuppa...
then buy 3 in 1 lar! or go across the road to the kopitiam and order kopi bing :)
80cents only!
and hot chocolate is basically similar to milo.

i've been doing this whole financial planning thing with a few of my friends..
i feel like a nag..
sheese..

and...transportation..
why take the cab when there's public transport..
because you're running late?
then get out of the house earlier la!
it's a whole lifestyle problem i tell you.

laziness.
and you wonder why your accounts are in the red.

gosh.

Woo baby baby.

2006-08-01T20:00:00.000+08:00

The air smells fresher
The birds chirp louder
The grass looks greener
The skies look bluer

I'm free from work!

kua kua kua.

and i'm soooo tired.

gosh.

K'O-ed since 9pm last night till 7am this morning.

niece is gonna come out tmr afternoon!!
woohoooo.
:)

I'm yours.

2006-07-24T00:12:00.000+08:00

Thank you for organizing the bbq!
tho there were screwups here and there..
overall it was fun
:)
heh.
loved the bridge playing..
loved the summer walking..
loved the cheese clamped between 2 slices of beef eating..
and i love that AGNES IS BACK!!!!

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENKAI!

and i'm sorry for being a grouchy cow.
hunger and tiredness does it to people.
sorry.

Summery Summery Summer! :)

2006-07-21T21:06:00.000+08:00

I love Summer! :D
tho her low self esteem problem is driving me nuts!
hahaha...
not really la..
she's soooo pretty and everything..
and she refuses to walk further than sloane court!
and to even get there...i had to tug and pull so many times..
everyone thinks that i'm torturing her!!
gah.
-bleargh-
we're gonna walk walk walking at botanic gardens tmr!
:)
ladeeda.
soooo nice :)
Summer!!
:)

POC.

2006-07-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

back in church again...after like..6weeks..
which felt like 6months.
was really really good.

the answer i gave when i got asked this question today...
'Why haven't you come for so long?'
is..
'World Cup..' + sheepish grin.

but that's just one of the minor reasons i reckon.
the main reason was that i've fallen behind.
and the thing about falling behind and not getting up immediately is..you get too used to being down..and don't see the need to make the effort to get back up again.
and..
yeah..
i was backsliding for 6weeks.
the WC was just a convenient excuse..
makes things easier to explain and all..
and one doesn't go around telling the world that you backslided.
so..
yeah.

but i've got friends who've been nagging and bugging me to get my arse back.
and tho sometimes i just either ignore you..or tell you..i'll try..
i really appreciate it.
jem even got jing to bug me about it.
all the way from syd.
O___o
nyeh.
i've got my act back together..and hopefully this won't happen anytime this year already..
i'm trying to cut down the number of times this happen every year..
and the period of which this happens..
yeah.

I really really do miss You. Really.