Keeping the dream alive.

i still feel like shit.
i hate this.
on the other hand.
i'm a sucker for swans which stare at you (or rather the food in your hand) with their big brown eyes until you give them every single morsel that you're holding onto.
i like orchids.
there are too many varieties.
went to the orchid garden today.
been spending too much time at the gardens.

taking this off dong's(liwei's friend) blog
the best works are like handshakes: one person initiates, two different entities connect for just that one moment. and you walk away not wanting to wash that hand of yours, knowing that it'd only speed up the process of forgetting that the one moment once existed.

i realised that..
nobody said that i was going to feel an instant liberation.
nobody said that the air was going to smell fresher.
the birds are going to sing.
the flowers start to bloom.
and a rainbow pops out of the sky.
instead,
there's a gradual change..
and now..
this is going to sound cliche..
but.
i'm at peace.
finally.
no more noises in my head.
i feel liberated.
:)

to you: Thank you, and i hope things can only get better. might be a little weird at first..but i think after taking the first few wobbly steps..stuff should fall back in place..just like how babies learn to walk. No more cold wars. next time i'll just say it in your face. that should save us alot of time trying to second-guess each other. :)