Keeping the dream alive.
Freitag, September 30, 2005
Thanking God.
Thank God for everything.
For the small stuff.
For me having completed almost 50% of my report which is dued by the end of Nov.
For the rain.
For the people around me everyday.
For the little stuff.
always for the little stuff.
Donnerstag, September 22, 2005
Fever and whatnots.
The parents are down with fever.
no idea if it's dengue.
hopefully their temperatures will drop by tonight.
gosh.
pray people pray.
and i owe yc big time.
thank you soooo much for the loan of the phone and for the ride back.
thank you!
back to being florence nightingale.
no idea if it's dengue.
hopefully their temperatures will drop by tonight.
gosh.
pray people pray.
and i owe yc big time.
thank you soooo much for the loan of the phone and for the ride back.
thank you!
back to being florence nightingale.
Mittwoch, September 21, 2005
Wednesday blues.
Incident 1:
I HATE THE ATTITUDE OF THE LAB GIRL.
it's sucky.
ihateherihateherihateher.
she made a mistake today.
and one of the nicer guys at the filling dept. actually brought the worksheet back for us to make the correction.
and even after i triple calculated it and confirm that it's WRONG.
she insisted that HER calculation was CORRECT.
but the thing is..
she took a shortcut in calculating the numbers.
but she didn't take into consideration that the two values aren't exactly factorizable.
so.
she carried the error forward, hence leading to the wrong final value.
and THAT girl dared to get pissed off at ME.
and she even said..if that's what you say, then there's nothing i can do.
and i was like !@^%$@&^#!%^&*$@
i mean..
i am NOT trying to find fault with you..and the fact that i actually calculated the thing 3 times, hoping to find that my fingers pushed the wrong buttons on the calculator.
and what did the poor nice guy, who brought the papers over do? he was being NICE! he could have sent the papers over to his sup. who hates the lab girl, and will prolly stir up a whole pot of trouble.
and I had to apologize for HER mistake to him, and endure the stupid blackass look on her face.
she's an asswipe.
i hate it.
why can't she just be gracious and say sorry.
instead of saying and implying that i'm making things difficult for her?
i mean..
albeit it's only 0.01kg more in every container that they pack, which really isn't THAT much of a hooha,
when u're packing 100+ containers, the amount works up to be 1kg.
and they would have to try to account for the missing paints and stuff.
Incident 2:
SHE INTERRUPTS OTHERS WHEN THEY'RE SPEAKING!
ruderuderuderuderude.
i was discussing with my m'sian ah beng about whether she spends more time with the indian guy in my lab.
the indian guy is really a nice guy..no idea why he puts out with her whining and bullying.
so..after discussing the more sensitive aspect in hushed voices, we started speaking louder talking in vague and general terms which only both of us understood.
and he was like telling me..'Ni yao liu yi kan, dong bu dong?'(You need to learn how to observe..know ernot?)
and i was like..'Bu shi ni meh? Kan what?' (You sure it's not you meh? Observe what?)
and he was like..'Wo dong ni liu yi wo hen jiu liao..'(I know you've been eyeing me for a while already)
and i was like..'-dies-'
and she happily just interrupted us by saying in her irritating high pitched voice..'Ni bu dong meh? Ta liu yi ni ji ke yue liao!'(You don't know? She's been eyeing you for a few months already)
and my ah beng and i went quiet and we refuse to continue talking to her.
blah.
spoiler of all conversations.
if there's any trace of scandal between my ah beng and me..her head is going to roll.
because..
there's no way i would say anything, no way he would say anything and no way my lab friends would say anything.
so.
it has got to be her.
and for once during lunch, she couldn't say anything.
because.
she has no idea what we were talking about.
she has no background story on it and we spoke in vague terms and no one bothered explaining it to her.
:))
meanwhile,
i managed to stick my foot up my mouth yet again.
today's been a boring and horribly sleepy day.
i don't believe my brain's even awake at all.
everyone was sien.
my ah beng was sien-ish..didn't even put up at fight when i suggested that the lab girl is his lao por.
he just said that his lao por is at home, and that was that.
he usually would banter with me about how my friend is his lao por, or how i'm his lao por..
and today, he jokingly threatened to pull my teeth.
O__O
yeah.
and the 2nd time he said that, i was like..'pull lor..you want then you pull la..'
then, he stopped his work and walked over, acting as if he was really going to pull my teeth.
and then i said..'Ni ser de ma?' (You bear to ernot?)
and he was like..'Of course bu ser de la..' (Of course not..)
and i had no comeback for that and then he grinned at me.
O__O
stupid flirt.
heh.
cuz he's always threatening to 'hoot' us if we fail him and stuff..
so we'll always be like..'hoot' lor..beat us lor..
and his next line will ALWAYS be..'can't bear to la..'
and then comes the megawatt grin.
O___O
he's too good for the lab girl.
we're gonna end his trauma tomorrow.
and matchmake her with another irritating jerk from the factory.
my ah beng is too good for her.
heh. :))
oh.
and.
the labmates were teasing me about having 3 husbands in the company..
one of which is the oh-so-gorgeous ang mor guy from UK.
and then i had to say..
don't have 3..only have 2!
and then i went.
OOPS. SHIT.
ONLY 1 i mean!!
and they were like...
OOOOO...got 2 hubbies!!
the ang mor guy and the m'sian ah beng.
and i was super duper mortified.
sigh.
why me when i'm sleepy.
why.
i should learn to shuddup when i'm sleepy.
bah.
I HATE THE ATTITUDE OF THE LAB GIRL.
it's sucky.
ihateherihateherihateher.
she made a mistake today.
and one of the nicer guys at the filling dept. actually brought the worksheet back for us to make the correction.
and even after i triple calculated it and confirm that it's WRONG.
she insisted that HER calculation was CORRECT.
but the thing is..
she took a shortcut in calculating the numbers.
but she didn't take into consideration that the two values aren't exactly factorizable.
so.
she carried the error forward, hence leading to the wrong final value.
and THAT girl dared to get pissed off at ME.
and she even said..if that's what you say, then there's nothing i can do.
and i was like !@^%$@&^#!%^&*$@
i mean..
i am NOT trying to find fault with you..and the fact that i actually calculated the thing 3 times, hoping to find that my fingers pushed the wrong buttons on the calculator.
and what did the poor nice guy, who brought the papers over do? he was being NICE! he could have sent the papers over to his sup. who hates the lab girl, and will prolly stir up a whole pot of trouble.
and I had to apologize for HER mistake to him, and endure the stupid blackass look on her face.
she's an asswipe.
i hate it.
why can't she just be gracious and say sorry.
instead of saying and implying that i'm making things difficult for her?
i mean..
albeit it's only 0.01kg more in every container that they pack, which really isn't THAT much of a hooha,
when u're packing 100+ containers, the amount works up to be 1kg.
and they would have to try to account for the missing paints and stuff.
Incident 2:
SHE INTERRUPTS OTHERS WHEN THEY'RE SPEAKING!
ruderuderuderuderude.
i was discussing with my m'sian ah beng about whether she spends more time with the indian guy in my lab.
the indian guy is really a nice guy..no idea why he puts out with her whining and bullying.
so..after discussing the more sensitive aspect in hushed voices, we started speaking louder talking in vague and general terms which only both of us understood.
and he was like telling me..'Ni yao liu yi kan, dong bu dong?'(You need to learn how to observe..know ernot?)
and i was like..'Bu shi ni meh? Kan what?' (You sure it's not you meh? Observe what?)
and he was like..'Wo dong ni liu yi wo hen jiu liao..'(I know you've been eyeing me for a while already)
and i was like..'-dies-'
and she happily just interrupted us by saying in her irritating high pitched voice..'Ni bu dong meh? Ta liu yi ni ji ke yue liao!'(You don't know? She's been eyeing you for a few months already)
and my ah beng and i went quiet and we refuse to continue talking to her.
blah.
spoiler of all conversations.
if there's any trace of scandal between my ah beng and me..her head is going to roll.
because..
there's no way i would say anything, no way he would say anything and no way my lab friends would say anything.
so.
it has got to be her.
and for once during lunch, she couldn't say anything.
because.
she has no idea what we were talking about.
she has no background story on it and we spoke in vague terms and no one bothered explaining it to her.
:))
meanwhile,
i managed to stick my foot up my mouth yet again.
today's been a boring and horribly sleepy day.
i don't believe my brain's even awake at all.
everyone was sien.
my ah beng was sien-ish..didn't even put up at fight when i suggested that the lab girl is his lao por.
he just said that his lao por is at home, and that was that.
he usually would banter with me about how my friend is his lao por, or how i'm his lao por..
and today, he jokingly threatened to pull my teeth.
O__O
yeah.
and the 2nd time he said that, i was like..'pull lor..you want then you pull la..'
then, he stopped his work and walked over, acting as if he was really going to pull my teeth.
and then i said..'Ni ser de ma?' (You bear to ernot?)
and he was like..'Of course bu ser de la..' (Of course not..)
and i had no comeback for that and then he grinned at me.
O__O
stupid flirt.
heh.
cuz he's always threatening to 'hoot' us if we fail him and stuff..
so we'll always be like..'hoot' lor..beat us lor..
and his next line will ALWAYS be..'can't bear to la..'
and then comes the megawatt grin.
O___O
he's too good for the lab girl.
we're gonna end his trauma tomorrow.
and matchmake her with another irritating jerk from the factory.
my ah beng is too good for her.
heh. :))
oh.
and.
the labmates were teasing me about having 3 husbands in the company..
one of which is the oh-so-gorgeous ang mor guy from UK.
and then i had to say..
don't have 3..only have 2!
and then i went.
OOPS. SHIT.
ONLY 1 i mean!!
and they were like...
OOOOO...got 2 hubbies!!
the ang mor guy and the m'sian ah beng.
and i was super duper mortified.
sigh.
why me when i'm sleepy.
why.
i should learn to shuddup when i'm sleepy.
bah.
Sonntag, September 18, 2005
Lab/Attachment Chronicles.
thinking of doing something like that.
but i'll prolly have to describe my attachment from erm..
day 1?
which would be pretty cool la.
since it's kinda drama-mama over here at the lab..
because of yours truly.
but i'm lovin' it.
really.
and i seriously don't have ANY iota of crush or whatever on my m'sian ah beng.
yet it's so funny as to how i've claimed him as my own.
ha.
it's just because there's so many m'sians over at the factory, making it hard to really describe..without mentioning names.
so..
there's this older m'sian guy who's really more hamsup than ah bengish.
but he's the other lab girl's.
not in my zone.
nuh-duh.
so..
there's her m'sian hamsup guy..
and my m'sian ah beng.
i'm rattling.
forgive me.
but i'll prolly have to describe my attachment from erm..
day 1?
which would be pretty cool la.
since it's kinda drama-mama over here at the lab..
because of yours truly.
but i'm lovin' it.
really.
and i seriously don't have ANY iota of crush or whatever on my m'sian ah beng.
yet it's so funny as to how i've claimed him as my own.
ha.
it's just because there's so many m'sians over at the factory, making it hard to really describe..without mentioning names.
so..
there's this older m'sian guy who's really more hamsup than ah bengish.
but he's the other lab girl's.
not in my zone.
nuh-duh.
so..
there's her m'sian hamsup guy..
and my m'sian ah beng.
i'm rattling.
forgive me.
Nighttime Shenanigans.
Drove over to Cal's place last night.
On impulse..and the fact that i haven't seen them for ages.
Parked at the superbly quiet and ulu illegal parking spots at the back.
and there wasn't much street lights and stuff.
went on up and bummed around.
what i wanted to do was..
bum and open up a bottle of wine.
but what we really did was to watch Missing..the chinese version,
Read the CHINESE newspaper.
and read more chinese newspaper.
and..
MY CHINESE HAS IMPROVED..dammit.
i'm officially a better chinese reader than zhenli.
bwahaha.
oh..
and apparently there's this thingo about..
your birth time and birthday linked to some emperor thingy.
and i'm the Emperor's HAND!
which means I'm RICH!
Zhenli's the Emperor's stomach..
so..she's good careerwise.
Cal's..ahem..the..erm...Emperor's foot.
bwahaha..
i can't help it.
:))
have been neglecting loads of people these days.
work's really not an excuse.
but it's just there.
things are happening too fast and stuff.
grandma's sick.
i'm not too sure how serious it is..but for someone her age..it might be bad..
she looks older these days.
was it a sudden, overnight event?
i don't know.
i just noticed it.
and over at work..
i'm too much of a fighter.
especially towards the lab girl.
i'm always challenging her...going against her.
but sometimes.
i know that i'm right.
her logic's very screwed.
and i'll just refuse to accept some matters at face value.
and well..
i'll just fight my way through.
no major battles yet.
tho i'm waiting for her to scold me or something one of these days..before i lash back.
somehow..she doesn't scold me.
even tho opportunity presents itself to her.
-shrugs-
but she doesn't hold back her tongue with others..and i really dislike that.
maybe it's time to cut down the number of 'backings' that i have.
but it's really hard.
i mean..i could and have already cut down the GM as one of them.
cuz..tho he got me the job..i don't really know him all that well.
but i've been chummy with the boss..
and with the factory sup. and Ed..who's really holding an executive post..
and with well..the my ah beng..
and..erm..with most of the people in the filling dept. except for 1 or 2?
and..fine..
i'm pretty cool with most of them.
i mean..people offer to help me carry stuff all the time.
gosh.
blessed me.
and i really appreciate the offers..tho i haven't taken anyone of them up on it yet..
but it's damm cool to know that there are people who are willing to take some time out of their busy schedule to help you with stuff.
coolness.
:)))
On impulse..and the fact that i haven't seen them for ages.
Parked at the superbly quiet and ulu illegal parking spots at the back.
and there wasn't much street lights and stuff.
went on up and bummed around.
what i wanted to do was..
bum and open up a bottle of wine.
but what we really did was to watch Missing..the chinese version,
Read the CHINESE newspaper.
and read more chinese newspaper.
and..
MY CHINESE HAS IMPROVED..dammit.
i'm officially a better chinese reader than zhenli.
bwahaha.
oh..
and apparently there's this thingo about..
your birth time and birthday linked to some emperor thingy.
and i'm the Emperor's HAND!
which means I'm RICH!
Zhenli's the Emperor's stomach..
so..she's good careerwise.
Cal's..ahem..the..erm...Emperor's foot.
bwahaha..
i can't help it.
:))
have been neglecting loads of people these days.
work's really not an excuse.
but it's just there.
things are happening too fast and stuff.
grandma's sick.
i'm not too sure how serious it is..but for someone her age..it might be bad..
she looks older these days.
was it a sudden, overnight event?
i don't know.
i just noticed it.
and over at work..
i'm too much of a fighter.
especially towards the lab girl.
i'm always challenging her...going against her.
but sometimes.
i know that i'm right.
her logic's very screwed.
and i'll just refuse to accept some matters at face value.
and well..
i'll just fight my way through.
no major battles yet.
tho i'm waiting for her to scold me or something one of these days..before i lash back.
somehow..she doesn't scold me.
even tho opportunity presents itself to her.
-shrugs-
but she doesn't hold back her tongue with others..and i really dislike that.
maybe it's time to cut down the number of 'backings' that i have.
but it's really hard.
i mean..i could and have already cut down the GM as one of them.
cuz..tho he got me the job..i don't really know him all that well.
but i've been chummy with the boss..
and with the factory sup. and Ed..who's really holding an executive post..
and with well..the my ah beng..
and..erm..with most of the people in the filling dept. except for 1 or 2?
and..fine..
i'm pretty cool with most of them.
i mean..people offer to help me carry stuff all the time.
gosh.
blessed me.
and i really appreciate the offers..tho i haven't taken anyone of them up on it yet..
but it's damm cool to know that there are people who are willing to take some time out of their busy schedule to help you with stuff.
coolness.
:)))
Samstag, September 17, 2005
Somebody
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
Happy Birthdays!
Happy Birthday to..
Glorijoy
Joel
Lijun
Sweetheart
Joshua
Carys
Liwei
My phone's down..as in..it's really in a bad state..
1st, i couldn't recieve sms-es..which was quite bad..
but i got used to it..
i mean..people could still call through..
but..
now..
my entire phonebook is GONE!
like..i've only have numbers of peeps whose name starts with 'A'
it's really really sad.
and i'm not sure how i'm supposed to survive with that..
O__O
and between work, piano homework, report writing, sudoku puzzles and stuff..
i'm super busy.
and work has been really really tiring..
with me doing manual labour..
getting irritated by this 'yellow' colour which i have still not managed to formulate..
and i did a new formulation of an existing colour, and well..it's better than the previous one that we were using..yeah..like..everything's better as compared to the previous one.
and i'm glad to say that i'm bumming lesser at work these days..
cuz i'm one busy butterfly..
i'll look for work everywhere la..even if i'm not assigned to it..
and i'm quite happy..
the lab girl's very weird.
J and i spent the week suaning my malaysian ah beng about her..
so it was technically a 2 vs 1 thingy.
until he managed to turn the tables on us..but we wanted to counter him by calling him 'kor kor'...but...no chance la..
and J took leave on friday..hence i was on my own..
and i decided to suan him a step higher too..
which was...erm..for him to..erm get the lab girl to be his 'lao por'..
O__o
which was really really really a wrong move..
cuz like..after i shot my 3rd arrow on that issue..and gloating over the fact that i shot my 3rd arrow..
he shot me back with one arrow and it was BULLSEYE.
he called ME 'lao por' instead.
DARN!
i was like...O____O!!!!!!
and then i was traumatized.
SUPER DUPER TRAUMATISED.
EYES WIDE OPEN, JAW-DROP TRAUMATISED.
it was sehr disgusting.
and it took like an hour or so to get out of my ah-beng induced trauma.
and he appeared AGAIN in my lab..
asking for tin plates..
and i was yet again trying to shoot another arrow at him..
so like..while i was opening the cupboard to get the stuff for him..i said..
'get your lao por to take for you la..' and i even grinned at him..a gesture of goodwill of some sort..
and then!!!
he dared to tell me that..
'that's why call you to take mar!'
Thank God no one else heard him..except me..
i was yet again in a state of trauma..and refused to take the stuff for him..until the lab girl got them for him..
bleargh.
horrible guy.
i need to countersuan him by monday.
and maybe suaning him about getting the lab girl as him 'laopor' ain't such a good thing afterall..
since i'm getting suanned instead.
:(
sigh.
prolly will be another few weeks before i get online and blogging and stuff..
email me if you miss me la..
i'm checking the mails in the office almost daily..so..that's a faster way to reach me..
toodles.
Glorijoy
Joel
Lijun
Sweetheart
Joshua
Carys
Liwei
My phone's down..as in..it's really in a bad state..
1st, i couldn't recieve sms-es..which was quite bad..
but i got used to it..
i mean..people could still call through..
but..
now..
my entire phonebook is GONE!
like..i've only have numbers of peeps whose name starts with 'A'
it's really really sad.
and i'm not sure how i'm supposed to survive with that..
O__O
and between work, piano homework, report writing, sudoku puzzles and stuff..
i'm super busy.
and work has been really really tiring..
with me doing manual labour..
getting irritated by this 'yellow' colour which i have still not managed to formulate..
and i did a new formulation of an existing colour, and well..it's better than the previous one that we were using..yeah..like..everything's better as compared to the previous one.
and i'm glad to say that i'm bumming lesser at work these days..
cuz i'm one busy butterfly..
i'll look for work everywhere la..even if i'm not assigned to it..
and i'm quite happy..
the lab girl's very weird.
J and i spent the week suaning my malaysian ah beng about her..
so it was technically a 2 vs 1 thingy.
until he managed to turn the tables on us..but we wanted to counter him by calling him 'kor kor'...but...no chance la..
and J took leave on friday..hence i was on my own..
and i decided to suan him a step higher too..
which was...erm..for him to..erm get the lab girl to be his 'lao por'..
O__o
which was really really really a wrong move..
cuz like..after i shot my 3rd arrow on that issue..and gloating over the fact that i shot my 3rd arrow..
he shot me back with one arrow and it was BULLSEYE.
he called ME 'lao por' instead.
DARN!
i was like...O____O!!!!!!
and then i was traumatized.
SUPER DUPER TRAUMATISED.
EYES WIDE OPEN, JAW-DROP TRAUMATISED.
it was sehr disgusting.
and it took like an hour or so to get out of my ah-beng induced trauma.
and he appeared AGAIN in my lab..
asking for tin plates..
and i was yet again trying to shoot another arrow at him..
so like..while i was opening the cupboard to get the stuff for him..i said..
'get your lao por to take for you la..' and i even grinned at him..a gesture of goodwill of some sort..
and then!!!
he dared to tell me that..
'that's why call you to take mar!'
Thank God no one else heard him..except me..
i was yet again in a state of trauma..and refused to take the stuff for him..until the lab girl got them for him..
bleargh.
horrible guy.
i need to countersuan him by monday.
and maybe suaning him about getting the lab girl as him 'laopor' ain't such a good thing afterall..
since i'm getting suanned instead.
:(
sigh.
prolly will be another few weeks before i get online and blogging and stuff..
email me if you miss me la..
i'm checking the mails in the office almost daily..so..that's a faster way to reach me..
toodles.
Samstag, September 03, 2005
Something is rotten in the state of Denmark.
I got paid.
whoopeedo.
:)))
was talking to Laughing and Funny just now..
that's ry and crys btw.
they're soo cute.
:))
really.
and went for a facial this morning.
the pimples were having a field day ever since work started.
like they'll appear and disappear and appear again.
all at different places.
gah.
went thru what seemed like hours of blackheads removal.
and stuff.
and.
i did waxing today.
it was..
nice in a sadomachoistic kind of way.
like..
the feeling of hot wax on the skin was..erm...nice..
heh.
then the pulling of the cloth was...erm..not so nice..
ah wells.
i should go get a waxing kit.
ladeeda.
all for the wax.
:))
loads happened at work this week.
too much to type.
nyeh.
I could be bounded in a nutshell, and count myself a king of infinite space, were it not that I have bad dreams.
gonna start on a new colour next week.
and prolly will be making 3 big pots of paint.
like BIG.
not my usual 250ml or 1L types.
this would prolly be 20L?
ladeeda.
fun fun fun.
oh.
and the boss's gonna meet me for my monthly review.
O___o
whoopeedo.
:)))
was talking to Laughing and Funny just now..
that's ry and crys btw.
they're soo cute.
:))
really.
and went for a facial this morning.
the pimples were having a field day ever since work started.
like they'll appear and disappear and appear again.
all at different places.
gah.
went thru what seemed like hours of blackheads removal.
and stuff.
and.
i did waxing today.
it was..
nice in a sadomachoistic kind of way.
like..
the feeling of hot wax on the skin was..erm...nice..
heh.
then the pulling of the cloth was...erm..not so nice..
ah wells.
i should go get a waxing kit.
ladeeda.
all for the wax.
:))
loads happened at work this week.
too much to type.
nyeh.
I could be bounded in a nutshell, and count myself a king of infinite space, were it not that I have bad dreams.
gonna start on a new colour next week.
and prolly will be making 3 big pots of paint.
like BIG.
not my usual 250ml or 1L types.
this would prolly be 20L?
ladeeda.
fun fun fun.
oh.
and the boss's gonna meet me for my monthly review.
O___o
