Keeping the dream alive.
Freitag, Juni 17, 2005
Perfect Strangers.
i wonder when we became strangers.
from the relative ease that we used to converse to the stunted conversations that we have now.
i wonder if we'll ever stop being strangers and turn back time.
i wonder why i don't do anything to make this mess go away.
i wonder if it's only me feeling this change, or do you feel it too.
have we managed to slip from 'friends forever' to 'how do you do?'
have we not noticed when this happened?
have we not done anything to turn back time?
maybe it all boils down to pride.
maybe you're proud to say these 2 words 'i'm sorry' and i'm too proud to tell you that i forgive you.
maybe it's pride holding us down, pulling us back, pushing the rift further apart.
maybe i'm still grasping on to my pride, perhaps grasping it too tightly, unwilling to let go of it, afraid of letting go.
maybe you don't know what to say, but really all i needed then was a 'i'm sorry', i didn't need to hear an excuse, a 'i'm sorry if...' all i needed was a 'i'm sorry.'
maybe i expect too much..just maybe.
i'd rather forfeit these current bouts of excruciating politeness,
like the hunter and the hunted, marking careful circles around our territories,
in exchange for the sarcastic remarks we had in the past.
i'd rather not avoid the landmines anymore and just step on one of those just for the heck of it..and if it blows..it blows.
but from the looks of things..i don't have any landmines in my court for me to step on..rather..i reckon you on the other hand think that 80% of your court is filled with landmines, silently beckoning the day you finally take a wrong step and it gleefully blows you up into pieces. all i can say would be..there are landmines but they do not take up 80% of the space, and sometimes it would be easier to let it blow and hit you in the face rather than turn away and walk far away from it.
i'd rather stay a child forever, in my world of 'i don't friend you!!', 'i like you!' and 'MUMMMMYYYY!!! HE/SHE/THEY BULLY ME!!!!!!'
instead..Adultland is full of people who aren't quite sure of what they're doing, of double meanings, of unspoken questions, and no one goes straight to the point anymore.
i'd rather not second guess anymore.
i'm tired.
people assume too much. no one bothers asking anymore.
and the child in me still doesn't know why.
from the relative ease that we used to converse to the stunted conversations that we have now.
i wonder if we'll ever stop being strangers and turn back time.
i wonder why i don't do anything to make this mess go away.
i wonder if it's only me feeling this change, or do you feel it too.
have we managed to slip from 'friends forever' to 'how do you do?'
have we not noticed when this happened?
have we not done anything to turn back time?
maybe it all boils down to pride.
maybe you're proud to say these 2 words 'i'm sorry' and i'm too proud to tell you that i forgive you.
maybe it's pride holding us down, pulling us back, pushing the rift further apart.
maybe i'm still grasping on to my pride, perhaps grasping it too tightly, unwilling to let go of it, afraid of letting go.
maybe you don't know what to say, but really all i needed then was a 'i'm sorry', i didn't need to hear an excuse, a 'i'm sorry if...' all i needed was a 'i'm sorry.'
maybe i expect too much..just maybe.
i'd rather forfeit these current bouts of excruciating politeness,
like the hunter and the hunted, marking careful circles around our territories,
in exchange for the sarcastic remarks we had in the past.
i'd rather not avoid the landmines anymore and just step on one of those just for the heck of it..and if it blows..it blows.
but from the looks of things..i don't have any landmines in my court for me to step on..rather..i reckon you on the other hand think that 80% of your court is filled with landmines, silently beckoning the day you finally take a wrong step and it gleefully blows you up into pieces. all i can say would be..there are landmines but they do not take up 80% of the space, and sometimes it would be easier to let it blow and hit you in the face rather than turn away and walk far away from it.
i'd rather stay a child forever, in my world of 'i don't friend you!!', 'i like you!' and 'MUMMMMYYYY!!! HE/SHE/THEY BULLY ME!!!!!!'
instead..Adultland is full of people who aren't quite sure of what they're doing, of double meanings, of unspoken questions, and no one goes straight to the point anymore.
i'd rather not second guess anymore.
i'm tired.
people assume too much. no one bothers asking anymore.
and the child in me still doesn't know why.
posted by [E]imaJ, 7:58 PM
