Keeping the dream alive.

have you ever experienced having your heart and brain collide over some issues?
like how you know the 'right' thing to do..and yet you just think about..'what if..'
and that leads to a whole avalanche of 'what ifs..' and doing the 'right' thing isn't all that appealing anymore..
perhaps i'm overtly complicating matters..afterall..that's what i usually do.
i almost always run through the whole 'worst case scenario' mentally.
and work backwards.
now..it really ain't the worst case scenario part which is killing me..then again..it's not really killing me literally..
rather it's the heart vs head issue which is the struggle here.
i can't decide.
i've got opinions from many many friends.
people whom i do listen to..
but the views are differing too.
and from each viewpoint.
i see different facets of the problem..which makes it even more hard to choose.
each has their own set of pros and cons.
maybe it's just because i'm unable to 'sacrifice' this con for the other pros..
because no one knows what problems this 'con' would unleash in the future.
the head is trying to think it through logically even though it already has an answer right from the start.
plus..i don't need added complications at this moment.
and it's gonna make things so much easier if everyone just wore their feelings on their sleeves.
there won't be a need to second guess any words or any actions by another.
i dislike second guessing.
because mentally..i'll go...what if i guess wrongly?
and that's why mindsweeper gives me a kick..because i'll always go after clicking a square...but what it this is/is not the bomb?

a dear friend said just now..
why don't you go for option 3...
and let that be the one between option 1 and 2..
a merger of both good qualities of some sort.
i wish it were so easy.
:(

darn.