Keeping the dream alive.

I SAY THAT GOD MADE ADAM AND EVE.
AND THEY'RE THE FIRST PEOPLE THAT HE MADE!
AND THAT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE BEFORE THEM.
AND
I SAY THAT BECAUSE THE BIBLE SAYS SO!
SO THERE!
FINITO.

nyeh.
typed a long entry and blogger ate it up.
not gonna type it again today.
too tired.
to blog.

need sleep.
stitches removed tomorrow.

frank sinatra's fly me to the moon.
dslr.
m'sian ah beng.
tips cup.

bed.
sleep.
now.

//blogger managed to save the entry i typed last night afterall..yay to blogger! :)) //

nyeh.
haven't been online for ages.
not to mention blogging.
been real busy and real tired lately.
kinda busy at work.
working on a new colour formulation.
some turquoise colour..slightly darker than the crescent school skirt.
i aim to finish the colour by monday.
it's getting quite close already.
:))

removing stitches tomorrow!
can't wait.
cuz the left side's aching real bad..
i wanna know what's wrong!

anyhow.
i think i'm an old fogy.
O___O
i mean..
i'm 21.
and i have hobbies and interests of a 40 year old.
O____O
would you believe me if i say that i have better conversations with people above 40 who speak english?
i can't hold decent conversations with the 20++ year olds..who are grousing on and on about Project Superstar..if you even know what that is..and like..Hello Kitty and stuff..sighs..
and i've been having totally nice conversations with N(the malay worker) and E(the lab uncle).
been talking mostly about jazz and whats-not with N..
he likes beatles..i claim that they aren't in my generation..although i happily proclaim that Frank Sinatra is in my generation..
which earned me a nice laugh and smile.
and i had lunch with E yesterday..
forgot to pack my lunch.
walked the 10min trek with him under in drizzle with an umbrella with a small lobang..
long story.
nyeh..
we spoke about photography on the way there..
about the film SLR(he likes) and the DSLR(i like)..
and we spoke about his son and dogs and what-nots during lunch..
and on the long trek back..the topic was cookery programmes.
like jamie O and stuff.
and we talked about jazz singers and stuff too.
ladeeda.
and did i mention that he drinks wine too?
heh.
but he's kinda like abit addicted already.
to ciggies and alcohol.
-shrugs-

nyeh.
started a tips cup at work.
idea was given by the m'sian ah beng.
i wanted to write the words 'xiao fei' = tips on the cup..
but we've got no idea how to write 'fei'
so...he told me write 'xiao qian' instead..as in..small money.
amazing guy.
you've gotta love him.

and some guy told me to use a chair today, cuz i was cleaning windows which were slightly taller than me..
and i was tiptoe-ing.
and my m'sian ah beng told me to grab an umbrella because it was scorching hot and i don't want to be a 'hei ren' right?
nyeh..this wasn't the exact statement tho..
-shrugs-
the meaning's the same.. more or less.
i choose to think that they care about me!
instead of suaning me..which might explain the chair issue..
but..wells...they care about me!
don't want me to hurt my poor little toes tiptoe-ing and don't want me to burn in the sun.
ladeeda.
so yay to me!

anyway...
i really think that i've changed quite a bit in this one month..
my attitude for one has changed..
gone was the girl who wished that she would kenna fever, so that she'll be able to beg off from work..
i skip around work everyday..
hum songs and sometimes singing showtunes..
i print the sudoku puzzles to try at work..
i think of ways to get my colour assignments correct..

i've always had wings, but i wasn't ready to fly

and..
i always make it a point to say 'xie xie' and mean it when the workers pass me stuff..
and i do offer my sweets to the workers..
selected few i guess...but still...
nyeh.
i guess i'll offer them to like workers that i kinda like..
like the ah beng and 'Ok Ok' etc.
ah wells..
have i mentioned that i feel real damm good when i see the smile on their faces when i offer them sweets?
and like if they're paiseh, only 'Ok Ok' fits in this category tho..the ah beng is NEVER paiseh, they'll take only one sweet..and i'll just urge them to take more..
i mean..
i can afford sweets..
but they've got a family to feed back home..
and i'm working in an air-conditioned lab, having more of a vacation than an internship..
and they're out in the stuffy factory which reeks of solvent smells..
it really doesn't hurt me to be nice to them..
if a smile can make them feel happy..why not?

and i've also learn to laugh at the irritants in my company..
and sometimes..i even pity them..
pity them for not having any real friends in the company which they can talk about stuff outside work about..
the girl, Popeye, had her photo up on the noticeboard up there at the canteen, where the workers have their lunch at..
and within like 2 days..
her face was disfigured..
we, the rest of the lab, thought of possible culprits and scenarios, but she doesn't know about it..
i mean..it was pretty obvious..since now..only her mouth is visible in the photo..
and the other 2 photos without her are fine and intact..
in fact..the photo of her is fine and dandy, except for her disfigurement.
O__O
nyeh.
i feel sad for her.
especially when everyone knows about it..everyone..including my big boss.
and that's saying alot..since she's almost always in her bubble of executives and what-nots..
-shrugs-

I'm doing good at work.
new stuff to do..
colour matching and stuff..
a little tedious, but overall very satisfying after getting the thumbs up from mr goh which means that the formulations all good to go.
:))

will be prolly working on a new colour this week.
had enough of beiges and what-nots for last week.
found out that the jamie O dude on the bus is a German.
yeap.
i've got great observational skills.
:))

and i invited myself over to the factory to watch the paint making process in BULK.
yeah.
was there for the whole of friday afternoon..
kinda interesting and stuff.
with tea breaks and all.
but the paint's not completed yet tho.
so i might have to go back over tomorrow morning.
:))
ladeeda.

and i happily toed the line last week too..
when i goaded my m'sian ah beng to suan the girl.
:P
i mean..all i really said was...Eh..you think she's a mei nu?
and that earned me a very LOUD answer which i wanted to hear and i didn't exactly want her to hear.
cuz it was paiseh-ing for me..since i was standing in front of him, obviously talking to him.
ah wells..
-shrugs-
he went on and on about the fact that she's old already and that she's not a mei nu, and even after i was like telling him to shut up already and lemme test his paint and stuff, he happily went in his super loud voice saying..WHY? YOU SCARED OF HER AR? NO NEED TO BE SCARED ONE!
and i decided that i would be better off buried 10 feet underground.
nyeh.
ladeeda.
it was damm hilarous after like 5 minutes of paiseh-ness.
:))
cuz he said that i'm a mei nu!
bwahahaha!
i'm so amused.
ah wells.
and i found out that his kid is like 2 yrs old.
which means that he was a dad when he was 23?!??
what do guys at 23 know about responsibility??!!???
O_____O
nyeh.
i respeck him sia.
RESPECK.

when to continue part 2 of my implants surgery yesterday.
and i'm rewarded with a swollen lip
and mashed potatoes for a week or so..
and 4 days of MC..which i prolly won't get paid for, hence i'll prolly won't be using them.
ah wells.

oh and i'm starting to bond with the boss.
heh.
gossiping and stuff.
ladeeda.

work tomorrow!
toodles.
oh..btw..pam! i have tong hua's piano score..i could give u the website addy or something..u want? remind me k? :))

i forgot who said that..
but i remember the whole scene tho.
Guy says, "I went home smelling like a flower! after using your deodorant!"
-everyone starts laughing like mad-

ah..
seriously think that it was shawn tho.
cuz he needed to use deodorant to mask the horrible ciggie smell.
and yeah.

that's another past chapter.
new people, new roles, new script.

today was good.
quite good.
the damm big-assed flirt attempted to piss me off.
by telling this nice, old indian man, whom i always smile at but have never spoke to, that my name is MEI NU..
!@#$#%!@$#
and i had to tell the poor old indian man who had this blur look on his face, which is understandable after being harrassed by some weird china man, that my name is NOT AND NEVER MEI NU and that the other guy's just stupid and spouting rubbish.
gosh.
i so wanted to gouge his bloody eyes out.
gah.
bad kharma.
oh and the 22yr old china guy decided to try to regrow his ill-fated goatee again.
it's getting very entertaining.
and i'm still stuck with BO guy on the bus.
-kills myself-

i've decided to christian the china guys at the factory.
at least the ones that i often come into contact with.
there's
Flirt.
Vain.
OK-OK.
Tan Lili.
BO guy.
and the 22yr old is now called, Veiny.
all thanks to the horrible veins that he has..
like they're very very very visible.
and pop-outty.
yuck.
the rest are kinda nice and there's one whom i can't even be bother to give a shorter name to.
gah.

anyway.
i saw julian hee last night.
he's quite tall la.
not THAT short.
:))

and gloree..i'm not jamie the bum.
i have a bum. but i'm not a bum.
:))
i'm a slacker.
ha.

and taemin's back in singapore for a week.
ladeeda.
i prolly won't meet him.
no point right?
i also say.
:))
LADEEDA.
the whole convo started off superbly sien.
which was understandable.
as i was waiting for mel to finally finish her meeting..and he was just feeling super bored.
and then i asked if he has visited Newton's circle.
and apparently, tho not surprisingly that it was the first place he went to.
for the stingray, sotongs, and tiger, as in the beer tiger.
and now i'm pooh-poohing tiger.
and he's fiercely defending it.
ha.
me: don't they have better beers in the States? to know that tiger sucks?
him: yar..but..tiger is like one of the first beers i had..

in some very weird and perverse way.
i love taemin!
in a very platonic way.
really platonic.
ladeeda!
he makes my world spin round and round and round.
-boingboingboingboing-

This week is fantabulous.
first came the parade @ Padang
then came the slackness at the office.
and with a new 'goal' to complete in the lab.
the week rocks my socks.

with the oh-so-gorgeous guy with the Jamie O's lips and hair that i saw on 252.
the only ulu bus that goes to my office.
-drools-
and i found out the next day that there's a new guy in the R&D lab over at my place.
he's from UK and he's gonna be stationed here for 2 years.
and he looks real young and stuff..quite shuai.
tho not as shuai as the bus dude.
:))

haven't talked much to my m'sian ah-beng this week tho.
except that we're gonna help spend his pay.
ha!
cuz i was saying that if he doesn't know how to spend his pay..
i could always help spend it..
on food, on shopping, on alcohol.
easy peasy.
and he was like..'ke yi..i pay for your drinks and food la..'
and i was like..so just pass me your cash?
and he's like...'bu ke yi..if want to spend must spend together right?'
gosh.
we were crapping for like 5 mins.
and i know that i won't spend his cash even if he wants me to..
heh.
he's got a wifey and kid ok...
:))

and about the parade.
i've got nothing to say.
words can't express how i feel
it was amazing stuff.
with the jets and the fireworks.
PWAH.
you HAD to be there.

met 3 danes today.
1st thought: They're tall.
way tall.
i had to look up ALL the time.
the shortest guy was a head taller than me.
and he's the youngest and the nicest looking.
-shrugs-
he has a gf already.
she's from the uk..on internship over here in sg.
she's pretty nice.
:))
la dee da.
the other guys were ok..i guess..
but they're really really friendly.
i guess i'll see more of them soon.
yay-ness.
they're doing their masters in nus..
think it's an exchange programme kinda thing..cuz it's only for 6 mths.

and yeah wasserfrau..
time really does flies.
gosh..
it's like father time on speed or something.
heh.
and soon ure gonna be at deutschland in end sept.
sighs..
:(

Did i mentioned that i think i might like working at my current place after graduation?
and that i was sent for a talk by one of our suppliers?
nyeh.
they thought it would be beneficial for my report and stuff.
heh.
but it was quite nice tho.
having chemical stuff thrown around you.
and we were with the R&D lab.
and WHOA MAMA R&D
the questions asked was quite interesting and stuff.
la dee da.
i'm gonna ask mah boss if she'll send me for more!
MORE MORE MORE!
la dee da.

Yesterday was oohlala steady bom pipi
:))

i fell in love yesterday.
we have a relationship.
jordan, utt and i
:)))
Jordan's a beagle.
Lance's beagle i think...but he was on loan to Christine.
Utt's a bird.
A Cockatiel!!
nyeh.
he's Christine's.
:(
but he's sooooo handsome!
and he doesn't shit much.
and he makes me run around.
la dee da!
Baby and Ben are nice budgies too.
but they shit loads.
and Baby is angry at meee..
cuz apparently he tried escaping from me many many times.
:))
i've got a relationship with UTT!
he doesn't fly around that much.
yay!

and Puppy doesn't want to have a relationship with me.
:(
she discriminated me.
bah.
-bleargh-

and we had ice cream!
and i was taking photographs of kids posing with the dogs.
but i dunno how to send the pics over tho.
heh.
:))
ladeeda.

happy happy day!
and i'm sounding weird.heh.
ah wells.
tmr's another work day.
and the day after's another holiday!
yay!

oh btw.
i've changed my blog music.
it's Tong Hua now.
i might change it again soon.
can't seem to stick with Chinese songs for long.
:))

Pay DAY!
MOOLAH!
heh.
superbly excited.

i've decided to be nice to the china workers.
most of them at least.
altho i've blacklisted 2 of them.
:))

the 26yr old came in many times today!
and he says he's 25..not 26..
but they say that he's 26..not 25..

ah wells.
we came to a conclusion that he's a M'sian ah beng.
:))

heh.
nyeh.
we always have super weird convos and i think he's on the verge of puking blood soon.
:))
he wanted a treat cuz i got my pay and stuff.
and i was like...i can cook plain rice.
and he was like..at least treat coffee la..
and i was like..the pantry has a coffee machine that dispenses free coffee.
:)))
nyeh.
and he ended up taking 3-4 sweets when i offered him sweets.
ha!
so funny.
cuz he's my adoptee..
he's the only guy from the factory which i offered sweets to.
:))
la dee da.

nyeh.
but i'm getting along quite well with everyone in the company tho.
:)
yay for me.
somehow..
i don't mind working there after i graduate and stuff.

anyway..
i was thinking..
really really thinking.
to me..
1k a month is real little.
but..
altho i ought to be the lowest in rank in the entire company..
even lower than the china clan..
i'm still earning more than them.
yeah.
and they still have to pay the employment agency or something.
which leaves them with like 600+?
and they work in the factory with all the dirt, dust and no air-con!
and i'm in the lab.
with the air con, perks and everything.
and i'm complaining.
gosh.
i don't even hear my 26yr old guy complaining altho i saw beads of perspiration on his forehead today.
:(
i feel pretty darn guilty for having thoughts that my pay's too little.
:(
esp. when i found out from him that he's paid like a few hundred more bucks than me.
and i'm
1) NEW
2) ON INTERNSHIP
and he on the other hand.
has prolly been working for years.
and everything la..

gosh.
i must have been like an idiotic peacock this afternoon.
jumping around with my paycheck and stuff.
gosh.
i feel REALLY bad.
but thank God for small mercies.
the china clan wasn't around when i was parading my feathers.
only my lab mates and the 26yr old.
nyeh.
i'll prolly buy them something on monday or wed.
chocolates might be good.
hmmm.
and i'll give some to my 26yr old and this other nice old man in the factory who has been teaching me loads.
so far..
i reckon only the 26yr old and Ah Jack, the old man, has been teaching me stuff.
the china clan prolly don't really know exactly what they're doing..
-shrugs-
nyeh.
i'm becoming good pals with my 26yr old.
i'll stop and talk rubbish to him when i'm at the factory..if he's not really busy loading powders and stuff.
and i saw his arm muscles at work today!
up close and personal.
heh.
la dee da.
and i've been getting tons of ally mcbeal moments.
where i would superimpose kc's head over my 26yr old guy's body.
bwah!
and i would start grinning idiotically to myself.
la dee da.

nyeh.
i need to focus on other stuff in the office instead of my payy.
:((
i will be nice.
and i'll treat everyone nicely and politely.
the way they should be treated.
but if i decide that you don't deserve my respect.
i'm sorry. there's nothing much i can do.
you just lost my respect..and it's hard to get it back.
-shrugs-

i was in a pretty happy mood today.
until i just saw the bad news on cal's blog.
Audrey Leo passed away.
she was my sec school classmate.
albeit we weren't close.
but we were still classmates and schoolmates in pjc too.
the thing is.
i can't seem to find my copy of the Straits times.
the one which i have, said that a girl named Audrey LEE was involved in an accident.
and LEE and LEO are quite different..
you see.
i need to be certain.
/edit: yeah. it's her.

anyway..
while i'm checking out stuff.
lemme update about the week so far.

nyeh.
haven't seen my adoptee for ages.
as in..i've seen him..
but he hasn't like come over to the lab and stuff.
:((
and he only came like once this week to suan the woman.
sighh.
nyeh.
but we've been talking rubbish..
when i go over to the factory to drop stuff off..
when we bump into each other in the morning and stuff.
heh.
:))

oh.
i almost kissed someone today.
O_o
like.
it was a very very near miss.
esp. for a mouth to mouth.
O_o
the 22yr old china guy la!
so short ar he.
pfffttt
heh.
i was walking..and he was walking..
and we turned.
and we did this whole emergency brake thingy.
and we were like...
O____O
it was super paiseh.
and the best part was..
the entire china clan was sitting behind me having their lunch.
so scary.
gosh.
but if it were to be the 26yr old...
it would prolly have been a mouth to shoulder thingy..
cuz the 22yr old is really kinda short..
:/
heh.

nyeh.

anyway.
let's go back to audrey.
i think the bf is a bleeding piece of asswipe.
i saw this on her friendster testimonial..written by him on the 27th of jul.
Today we rode at 160km/hr at AYE on the way back home. So cool.... On Singapore road! I guess you are used to me riding like that already yah... LOVE LOVE

bloody bugger.
frickin asswipe.
he was on a BIKE at 160!
i don't even do 160 in a CAR.

idiots nowadays.
frickin asswipes.

Adoptee is no where to be seen again.
tho he did appear yesterday.
:(
but he was assigned to a post high up from the ground.
and i couldn't see him that much.
heh.
:))
and i realised why i missed him.
cuz.
he suaned her again yesterday!
it was PWAH.

:))
oh.
and my bus-mate is changing.
:((
haven't sat with the usual guy for 2 days.
nyeh.
i'm now stuck with weird guy with weird smell.
bah!

Zaki's weird.
after like not talking for like a gazillion years.
we managed to happily start a conversation about guys with clevages.
i'm dying.
he's worse than taemin.
he kinda makes taemin look like an angel or something.
-dies-

started the day relatively happy and stuff.
especially after the morning phonecall with agnes.
and i was happily starting work today.
when.
i found out that.
i've got no internet, no intranet, nothing.
gosh.
the entire system was down!
gosh.
i had to act as if i was working.
and i managed to finish a page of the letter that i was writing to jing.
if everything's down tmr.
i'll prolly might finish it.
:))
but.
my adoptee isn't at work again today!
i wonder what happened to him.
:(
ah wells.

becker beckons.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST DARLING PRINCESS PAMELA!
the venue was nice.
the food was...ok..
but the PEOPLE WERE AMAZING!
yay!

and all you really need is great people to liven up any party!
WOOWEE!

i'll blog more about the party soon.
real soon.
but.
i wanted to say that.

AGNES is going to make a pretty darn good wedding planner.
gosh.
Jamie is going to endorse agnes's wedding services man.
:))
and Agnes, Jamie, Jun can do a wedding package thingy.
complete with photos, organizing and sound.
:))
please leave a note if you wanna hire us.
:))
reasonable prices.

oh.
and.
the chicken soup last night was AMAZINGLY weird.
:))
sharon says it's too creamy.
jane and esther thinks that it's too watery.
Joshua Lee thinks that it's kinda like chinese tonic soup.
JAMIE says that..
it's creamy and ginseng chicken-y.
it's a FUSION.
East meets the West.
it's like.
A can of campbells soup meeting ginseng chicken soup.
heh.
interesting.
:))

Up down up down
Leggers pump
Up down up down
Bicycle speeds past.

Pictures flitted past
Images swirling by.
Looks at alma mater.

Everything's changed,
and yet everything still seems the same.

Wasn't impressed with the Saturday morning crowd in town.
It's like watching a few surviving strands of hair, on a balding head, dancing in the breeze.
Enough to be fascinated for 5 seconds.
Not enough to have my attention for another 5.

There's a thing about roaming about in shopping centres before their opening hours.
You'll see things that you usually don't see.
People behind glass doors cleaning the tables, rearranging the displays, mopping the floors.
It's like installation art,
popping up in every shop.
To be in a place known for its human crowds and noise,
to be there without the usual buzz seems amazing.

Hustle bustle chop chop

found that a whole new level was dedicated to ART.
Love Bookbinders, Creative Hands.
Love one of the little guys there.
Kohtaroh, aged 5 i guess.
that's what's written on the display.

Will drop by later.

I do most of my shopping before the shops open.
:)