Keeping the dream alive.

Finally Kellie is gone!
FINALLY!
anyway..
i've got another paper tmr..
so...
prayers are totally welcomed!
really!!
plus i need additional help for NEXT week's paper..
that's the one that i'm currently only bordering a pass on..
which is super duper horrible.
cuz it's closed book and stuff plus there's like a whole ton of stuff to memorize..
so...i'm collecting prayers for next week's paper too!!
:D

anyway...
tomorrow's paper.
28th April 2006
Physical Properties of Polymers
2.30pm
S9A-01-01
Seat number 9

and next week's paper. (LAST PAPER)
4th May 2006
Polymer Chemistry II
1pm
LT26
Seat number 9

sighhhhhhh..
rights..

heh.
rights.
Now i remember what i wanted to blog about last night.

apparently..
when i stepped out of the house yesterday morning to get ready to head down school for the paper.
i realised something.
I haven't stepped out of the house for at least 5 days.
and maybe even more than that if not by my own will.
man.
i'm such a recluse.

anyway.
i just got back from the bank.
went to settle some money stuff.
my dad and i walked all the way from my place to the bank then to ikea then to cold storage and what nots.
pretty decent walk in a nice weather.
:)
i had to settle bank stuff.
dad had to buy some random present for his secretary.
apparently it's secretary's week or something.

so..we went to ikea.
but their biscuits were too cheap for his liking and the packaging didn't have the 'Oomph' factor.
-shrugs-
No decent stuff at cold storage either.
took the bus down towards town.
stopped along the way and ended up at this huge NTUC.
which had Nothing as well..
why am i not surprised.
so...
next destination.
the M&S at Borders.
cuz M&S should have presentable stuff..
and my dad usually gets his biscuits from there la.
AND.
THERE'S NO SHIPMENT!
O__O
we were told to try the branch over at Paragon.
trugged over there.
Same old thing.
went to Jasons' at the bottom.
Zilch.

Man...
How hard can it be to find a decent looking tin of cookies???
ended up at Taka.
where the selection's ENDLESS.
and.
after a bout of indecisiveness.
we got the tin.
giftwrapped it.
and went for Pepper Lunch for Lunch!
:D
so fun!!

so..
technically.
I lost a couple of precious hours when i could have been studying for my next paper.
but..
if you really think about it..
I gained much more i reckon.
I gained an entire morning's worth of quality time with my dad.
heh.

rights.

with God, Family and Friends.
What else do i need?
:)

/ps. the korean kid is getting old. lousy boy. mark my words..he's gonna end up having afternoon teas, taking up knitting and watching oprah on the telly.
He's old and boring and he's only 22!
tsk tsk.

One down.
Two to go.

Sigh.
I so need to start mugging for those 2..

next paper.
Friday 2.30pm.

today's paper was ok i guess..
i was soo meant to lose that 15marks no matter what la..
ah wells.

I just can't smile without You.

ARGH!
Kellie REFUSES to LEAVE!
how come??????
darn it.

Ace is out.

nyeh..
i've got nothing to say about that.
but i sooo preferred him to stay and kellie out.
I can tahan him for one more round..and not her.

arghhhh..
she butchered the song and she's not even in the bottom three???
gah.

one more day of environment and i'm off to polymerland.

tomorrow's the paper.
Prayers are always welcomed.

You can focus your prayers to this seat.
9am LT26 Seat number 20

Thank you!

But I like milk AND wine.
O__o

I am sure everyone knows the benefits of the milk. But they do not last long. They grow bad with age. Your relationship with them will turn sour with age. Some people are like wine, they taste better with age. They do not knock you out straight away but they will get you intoxicated, drowning you with their gentle sweetness and strong taste.Most people are like milk. You get sick of them sooner or later, just how long it takes for them to be expired. However, people who are like wine are the true gems. Expensive and hard to find, but worth every penny and every second you spent looking for one.
-Bestie's entry-

Uh...
But milk's essential for growth.
Wine's more like an indulgence.
but you can't over indulge yourself too i reckon..
you'll get liver damage etc.

so..
i really can't decide which of it is the better one.
the only words i can think of at this point would be..
'Everything in moderation.'
-shrugs-

hmm..
then ain't water the best of them all?

Paper on friday..
Environmental Chemistry.
(jane..that's why so geography la)

I'm so sick of environmental chemistry already!!
that's the thing with having papers TOO evenly spread out.
I don't feel the stress!
and that's Not good.

anyway..random stuff.
I LOVE THE MUSICAL THE WEDDING BANQUET.
currently..
it's the only Cd that i can play and sing along smiling with a big big big grin.
so nicely funny.

and..
guess what sport i'm actually watching now?
nyeh..
1stly..i'm no sports fan..AT ALL.
the only time i watch sports would be during the olympics, SEA games etc.
and that's for the swim team.
the other sports i would bother to watch is Soccer.
during the World Cup and Euro season.
now.
i spent 2hrs last night watching a rugby match on tv.
and it's SOOOO exciting lar!
i felt for them man..
the team i supported lost tho.
:(
Northhampton Saints..i think..
nyeh..
it's just because Bruce Reihana is there..
He's some former All Blacks' guy who moved to England.
-shrugs-
nyeh.
can't believe i actually watched a match tho.
hmm.

There’s a somebody I’m longin’ to see
I hope that he, turns out to be
Someone who’ll watch over me
I’m a little lamb who’s lost in the wood
I know I could, always be good
To one who’ll watch over me
Although he may not be the man
Some girls think of as handsome
To my heart he carries the key
Won’t you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Argh.
my korean nightmare is back in town!
for a month at least!

-blinks-

he's just so rubbish.
as usual.

did the usual bickering thingy.
over his choice of poison..
over my choice of poison..
as usual his choice is lousy.
Tiger beer..
bleargh.
Cognac.
Bleargh.

nyeh..
but he said..
"so few people i know in singapore now
everyone is gone
T_T"

and i dunno..
he needs to find people to go drinking with him.
-blinks-
lousy kid.

but it's a really horrible feeling..
when almost everyone you know ain't around no more..

-shrugs-

too bad it's the exam season..
we'll see how.

[cough cough]
man...
i'm down with something..i just have to know what THAT is..
anyway...
my first paper's on friday..
and i'm still not in the MUGGING MUGGING state..
just a semi-mugging and plenty of fooling around state.

this is bad.

today's Easter.
Thank You Lord.

[cough cough]
stupid cough.
blah.

God of the moon and stars
God of the gay- and singles bars
God of the fragile hearts we are, I come to you
God of our history, God of the future that will be
What will you make of me, I come to you

God of the meek and mild,
God of the reckless and the wild
God of the unreconciled, I come to you
God of our life and death
God of our secrets unconfessed
God of our every breath, I come to you

God of the rich and poor
God of the princess and the whore
God of the ever open door, I come to you
God of the unborn child
God of the pure and undefiled
God of the pimp and paedophile, I come to you

God of the war and peace
God of the junkie and the priest
God of the greatest and the least, I come to you
God of the refugee
God of the prisoner and the free
God of our doubt and certainty, I come to you

God of our joy and grieve
God of the lawyer and the thief
God of our faith and unbelief, I come to you
God of the wounds we bear
God of the deepest dreams we share
God of our unspoken prayer, I come to you

God of a world that’s lost
God of the lonely cross
God who has come to us, I come to you

The exams are REALLY REALLY soon!
first paper next friday!!
and i'm like editing some slides so that i can print those out and STUDY.
and i saw this and found it funny.
now..it doesn't look all that funny..i think it's one of those jokes where you just have to be there..

Q. What is a barrel of hazardous waste with a drop of champagne called?
A. Hazardous waste
Q. What is a barrel of champagne with a drop of hazardous waste called?
A. Hazardous waste!

I finished all my work.
So..
it's just the exams left i guess..
3 papers..
mannn.

anyway..had my last presentation this morning.
went to let the doctor see me
went to let the Acer guy see my laptop
and yeah.

Verdict.
I've got sensitive eyes.
and i've got sensitive skin..
and having sinus..i reckon that means that i've got a sensitive nose too.
so.
I'm Sensitive.
blargh.

and the Acer guy's nice.
I'm gonna bring my laptop to school tmr to let him install some steady bom pipi antivirus
:)
ladeeda.

very tired now.
Need to crash before i burn.
but..
i need to pile my notes neatly into 3 piles first.

Me thinks..
My criteria for a guy has gone up.
from whenever till now.
there seems to be a huge change..
comparing the guys i used to like...and those that i'm kinda a lil' bit attracted to now..
they're nothing alike.
i'm serious.
i did a whole mental comparison thingy just now..
and it's very interesting how the qualities one seeks in a partner changes with age.
like things that seemed important then..aren't quite as important now.
and qualities that really matters now..didn't at all looked quite as fun then.
hmm..

righty ho.
in other news.
i passsed my oh so scary test..
Thank God.
and i finished presentation for my envt proj today.
it was cool.
not much questions.
my group was chop chop straight to the point.
unlike the previous groups that smoked too much.
we might have sounded refreshing for a change..
hence the marks that we had a glimpse of looked good.
:)

other more horrible news.
Some irritating bird flew into my toilet today and shat on the window still!!
and it was like diarrohea-ing!
Gross.
I'm totally fine with it flying in...
and shitting into the toilet bowl and maybe even flushing it later..
but at the window still?
i had to spray water and now my entire toilet's wet.
:(
bah.
lousy bird with no courtesy.
bleah.

Your IQ Is 140

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Genius

I'm supposed to be doing my lab reports now.
I've got 2 reports dued.
A presentation on friday.
Another presentation on tuesday.
A test on monday.

Good stuff.

anyway..
one reason why i'm like online is that..
i wanted to d/l the AMI songs.
heh..that was the initial reason la

but...
i saw a friend's msn nick..
(note that friend is someone whom i very very very extremely seldom talk to online albeit the fact that we're always online...)
the nick was..
"One day all will disappear - would love as small as a mustard seed move mountains?"
and my first reaction was...
yeah...one day everything of the world will disappear...
and that everything is fleeting..
i think that love as small as a mustard seed would be able to move the mountains...
apparently...she feels that she doesn't have any talents etc..
and i just mentioned a point that...she's a wonderful listener...and being able to listen is a talent..
seriously.
that IS a talent.
to be able to truly sit and listen is a GIFT.

Next..on simulcast on msn..
this other guy whom i haven't really know till this sem...albeit being in the same class for 3yrs..
and he's nice la...
His nick is.. The paradox of life: the more we have, the less contented we are, the more we want
and to me...i feel that...it's a matter of defining what true contentment is.
Does contentment stem from material goods or spiritual treasures?
and his view is that...literally..the less you have..the more contented you are.. (i.e. poor people are satisfied easily)
But...i've seen plenty of poor people with such big big big huge ambitions.
so...that doesn't tally with his view exactly, does it?
If i could change his statement..
I would say that...The less we know of worldly goods (i.e. less bombardment from the media etc.) the easier we'll find contentment.
Example: Kids were so contented just by mucking around in the playground. Until they understood what the tv adverts were trying to sell..
that prolly lead to the whole 'I want I want' syndrome.
and..I guess that blurred the line between 'I want' and 'I need'
because...everyone seems to NEED everything nowadays..
like how I so totally need an ipod. or I need to get my hands on this new [insert thing].
yeah.
-shrugs-

The coolest thing about all of this is that...I feel like i'm in some revision class.
I saw this whole part of His study plan for me..
Super cool and interesting...
And silly ol' me just saw it like recently lor
Tho He's been teaching me for like 1.5-1 month already.
Thank You for Your patience.
-beams-

Righty ho.
About the study plan.
Remember my recent bout of burn-out?
yup.
Before the whole faint-y spell thingy happened...
J was telling me to learn to surrender to Him.
Apparently..I only knew that I needed to surrender only after the faint-y thing happened.
and i was happy after that..I thought I finished learning that lesson already.
but..
He wasn't done with me yet.

Was emailing a friend about that whole incident...telling him that i learnt to surrender etc.
And he asked me what does it mean to surrender?
And does that mean passing all my burdens to Him?
Because..the term 'surrendering' is frequently used by Christians..and so...what does surrendering mean?
That so made me think and questioned it.
Pondered over the question for roughly 2weeks.
had on-off minor discussions with J about it.
Finally came to my own set of answers last week.
Happy happy!
and then. He showed me yet again that I was far from done.
that the lesson just started.

Because..somehow...in the course of last week...
I was reading my Bible..and I decided to read the book of Ecclesiastes
Which teaches that basically...everything of the world is fleeting..
(see any similarities between this and the msn convo?)
and to me...everything just seems to tie in with the idea of surrendering..
This is going to be such an interestingly cool lesson.

The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips and walk out the door, and deny Him by their lifestyle. That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable.
— Brennan Manning

But to paraphase the Jesuit spiritual teacher Anthony de Mello, 'In a
hypotheical situation, if I could promise you perfect happiness, would you take
it? It would mean giving up everything - your job, your car, your house, all
your possessions, you'd be living on the street, but you'd be blissfully,
joyously content. How about it?' Anthony de Mello suspected that no one would
want to take him up on it. And when I put it to the people I interviewed, they
said, 'Give up everything? Even my house?' I pointed out that they'd be
sublimely happy, that they wouldn't care that they possessed nothing, but they
all looked uncomfortable and eventually confessed they'd rather stay as they
were.
- Under the Duvet by Marian Keyes

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory
In the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory
In the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

This feels quite weird..
and i really never think that i would ever say this..
but...
I think i wanna go Phuket.
-beams-

ha!
right.
seriously!
but the rates are so expensive!
but the rooms look sooo good.

Check this out.

wanna go????
maybe like end of the year?
then we can go as a class or something??
Agnespamjingtiffsharonjuneugenejemjoshjacetcetcetcetc?
prettyplease????
-beams-

Raawrrrr
i need to go psycho my parents or something.

They have diving and spa and everything!

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Acts of Service:		8
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		4
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz


I know you love me when you do things for me that you don't enjoy doing.