Keeping the dream alive.

Thank you for organizing the bbq!
tho there were screwups here and there..
overall it was fun
:)
heh.
loved the bridge playing..
loved the summer walking..
loved the cheese clamped between 2 slices of beef eating..
and i love that AGNES IS BACK!!!!

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENKAI!

and i'm sorry for being a grouchy cow.
hunger and tiredness does it to people.
sorry.

I love Summer! :D
tho her low self esteem problem is driving me nuts!
hahaha...
not really la..
she's soooo pretty and everything..
and she refuses to walk further than sloane court!
and to even get there...i had to tug and pull so many times..
everyone thinks that i'm torturing her!!
gah.
-bleargh-
we're gonna walk walk walking at botanic gardens tmr!
:)
ladeeda.
soooo nice :)
Summer!!
:)

back in church again...after like..6weeks..
which felt like 6months.
was really really good.

the answer i gave when i got asked this question today...
'Why haven't you come for so long?'
is..
'World Cup..' + sheepish grin.

but that's just one of the minor reasons i reckon.
the main reason was that i've fallen behind.
and the thing about falling behind and not getting up immediately is..you get too used to being down..and don't see the need to make the effort to get back up again.
and..
yeah..
i was backsliding for 6weeks.
the WC was just a convenient excuse..
makes things easier to explain and all..
and one doesn't go around telling the world that you backslided.
so..
yeah.

but i've got friends who've been nagging and bugging me to get my arse back.
and tho sometimes i just either ignore you..or tell you..i'll try..
i really appreciate it.
jem even got jing to bug me about it.
all the way from syd.
O___o
nyeh.
i've got my act back together..and hopefully this won't happen anytime this year already..
i'm trying to cut down the number of times this happen every year..
and the period of which this happens..
yeah.

I really really do miss You. Really.

met up with my cg for dinner tonight! :)
really nice.
haven't seen them for so so so long..
especially since i went into hiding and all..

so much have happened..

maybe i'm not that different after all

work's been fine today..
got punctured by a stapler..
and a papercut.
on different hands.
when the solvent comes into contact with the wounds..
it stings so bad that i'll be cursing like a foul-headed sailor.

papercut.

basically..
i'm just numbed.

but i'm coming back to You.
i realised that nothing seems right without You.

The skies seem less blue..
the birds don't seem to sing..
the grass..less green.
everything less vibrant..
Without You.

Gah.
lab has a biatch.
factory's biatch is still a biatch.
lab's biatch has changed..
the biatch from last year has stepped down to make space for the current biatch.
and she's a lot worse.
because she's kinda 2 face.
and that sucks.
ah wells..
not that i really care about that..
i just do the whole ally mcbeal thing of visualizing rubbish happening to her and all..
not that i'm proud of that.
but..
that keeps me sane.
there's this other girl that i'm closer too at work..
she's new...came in after i ended my IA.
my age :)
and she's malay.
she's cool lar.

right.
factory biatch is the same old girl.
only 22(my age..) acts as if she's the bloody boss.
came in today and told me.
Ai Ling, D needs this urgently. Can you get this done by tomorrow morning? -thrusts sheet of paper at me-
my reply..
ok.
-takes paper, throws it on the table, continues doing other stuff, thus ignoring her-

wah lau..no please..no thank you...she thinks she's my boss ar? even my boss does the whole basic courtesy thing lar.
and then after she left..there was nothing much left to do in the lab..
so i was like..
screw it lar...let's get it done today.
cuz she gave me the paper at 5.30..
and i passed it all back to D at 5.35..thanks to years of experience in irc, icq, msn, emails wherever..my typing skills are like top-notch.
:)
and D..who's heavily pregnant...whom i totally do not mind helping her do stuff..
was like..
THANK YOU!! i thought you can only finish in the morning.. :)
and i'm like...no worries..abit only..you need it urgently anyway.

seeee...
COURTESY.
is it THAT hard?
man.
what rubbish school is the biatch from anyway..

damm irritating.
grrrrr.

Shove it.

Best match ever.
Good show of sportmanship.
and my 2 favourite teams.
what more can you ask for?

Probably the first time in this tourney that i'm happy to lose my 15bucks.
the final score's 3-1
brilliant score.
firstly..
Kahn was allowed to play for the entire 90mins.
next..
2 goals were by the same 21year old german guy.
lastly..
figo played an important part by making a nice cross over to nuno gomes who headed in the only goal for portugal.

it's a change of seasons now.
a turning of a new era.
one without kahn or figo.
a nice farewell game.
for kahn to finally play.
for figo to lend a hand in orchestrating the goal.
brilliant finishes for them both.
ex-captains for their teams.
kahn was captain in the previous WC.
and figo's still captain.

scolari and klinsmann are such a joy to watch.
never thought i would enjoy watching the coaches.
but they're so entertaining!
unlike the french guy...grumbles.

I reckon in this match..both teams left as winners.
neither team was expected to make it this far.
they surpassed the expectations their nations had for them.
:)

after HT, when the teams were coming back onto the field..
scolari was talking to klinsmann..
friendly banter..
with pats on the back and all.
nice.
:)
i wish klinnsman would continue to stay on as coach
and scolari would stay with portugal..
tho..brasil might want him back.
brilliant match tonight.

This is the my world cup finale.
:)

my poor poor portugal.
boo to the lousy call by the referee..
lousy refereeing.
bah.

it's now back to italy and france.
damm.
lousy world cup season.
:(

but at least i can analyse the matches without getting too 'into' it.

and i also realise one of the reasons to the question..
Why the rich get richer and the poor get poorer..
right..
i found out that the factory workers...like those from m'sia.
they actually bet that portugal would find last night.
and..that's perfectly fine.
but..
the thing is...this guy bet $250!
SGD!

like..
man!!!!
i would NEVER do that with that kind of money.
on a single match.
on a single slip of paper.
NEVER.

i always believe in putting my eggs in many different baskets.
to spend my $25bucks on the germany vs italy match.
i spent the entire day at work calculating all the odds and configurations and permutations.
and finding the 'confirm' win config.
and..
after contemplating for ages..
i bought 10bucks draw and 15bucks 1 goal.
so..
i won..
4 bucks.
yay.
still money.
:)

didn't buy for portugal vs. france tho.
told the world that if portugal wins..i'll not gamble for the rest of 2006.
and that includes daidee, mj etc.
but..since they didn't win..
i placed my bets on the portugal vs germany match already.
since i love both teams..
i placed very neutral and safe bets..
spent the day calculating where my 15bucks would go to..
decided on 5bucks draw, 5bucks 0 goal, 5bucks 1 goal.
was thinking of getting 10bucks draw, 10bucks 1 goal, and 5bucks 0 goal.
that would be 25bucks in total..
which is obviously a higher risk..tho that means more of a profit margin la.
but one lesson i learnt is NOT to be greedy.
what if stupid stuff happens like 2-0?
i'm not covered by 'insurance'.
tho i tried to factor in the total goal 2 as a 'safety net' of some sort.
but i end up with more losses.
so..
yar.
let it be a draw.
0 - 0

:)

Germany must win!!
i'm rooting for them.
i love deutschland.

nyeh.
my entire ENTIRE lab supports italy.
bah.
see the rubbish i've got to put up with..
pfffttt.
even the bengster wants italy to win.
sheese.
if i want germany supporters..i'll have to go bum around the warehouse department.
many many many germany supporters.
:)
ladeeda.
i'm like the underdog in my lab.
O__O

tomorrow's gonna be worse.
much worse.
i'm prolly going to be the underdog of the company.
because.
i'm rooting for portugal.
sole reason: Scolari.
he's damm cool lar..
i believe in scolari.
from a nation that has never been in the top 16 or something.
he managed to bring portugal into the top 4..
that's quite some feat...
so..
PORTUGAL!

but that's for tomorrow.
:)
need to crash now.
match on at 3am..
will wake up.
watch match.
sleep at 5am.
wake up at 6.30am
sleep my way to work.
reach the company at 7.15am
chat some bit with the bengster and friend.
nap at 7.20am
start work at 8.30am.
and catnaps throughout the day.
cuz the bosses ain't around.
:)

brasil..
:(
hai....

why must the good die young?

-wails-

WOOHOOOOO!!!!
of my 3 teams...
2 have already qualified for the semifinals!!
albeit ending in penalty shootouts.
but it's damm shiok lar..
germany's penalties were super on target.
precision precision precision.
portugal's match was more fire..more passion..
i would describe germany's match as one of cool calmness...
of ice.
and portugal's match would be one of fiery passion..
of fire.
and i'm really waiting to watch the brasil's match.
hoping it to be a beautiful game.
wonderful magic.
like baileys or whiskey..
warm fuzzy feeling.
not totally fire nor ice..
:)

i tell you...the penalty shootout for portugal.
i died twice.
when the dodo players didn't even aim for the goal lar.
the goalkeeper didn't even have to block.
it was OFF target.
gosh.

can't wait for the brasil match.

and if brasil wins.
i'll have another problem.

brasil vs. portugal.

and if things go my way.
germany will win italy.
and brasil will win portugal.

and the finals will pose another problem.

brasil vs. deutschuland.

and i would want brasil winning.
and portugal vs. italy.
would be portugal winning..
and everything will fall into place.

1. Brasil
2. Deutschuland
3. Portugal.

which is the ranking system of my teams ever since the start.
:)